Hi goldilocks,
Thanks so much for posting on here. I'm sorry you're experiencing challenges with family and social media. I think that sometimes you need to give these things time. It's hard understand where someone is at when everyone's emotions are really high. Sometimes people need space, for all sorts of random personal reasons. When this happens I think the best strategy is often to just give them that space, even if it feels really painful at the time. Trying too hard to obtain and understand the reasons someone is stepping away risks escalating all the emotions, and can make the other person want to withdraw even more.
Have you ever explored artistic ways of expressing yourself in situations like this? Have you ever done music? I love music cos you can be as intense and dramatic as you like, and as long as you depersonalise lyrics etc just a bit other people can still really enjoy it, and no-one will accuse you of "causing drama". I found this to be an important way for me to deal with intense feelings of rejection and depression etc.
Also, are there other supports you can develop if this particular person is not being supportive? Do you have a good GP and/or psychologist you can talk to about depression? There are also peer support groups that can be really helpful. I also think light, fun social interactions through things like choirs, sport groups, board game groups etc can provide a sense of connection to others, and a sense of being supported. Support isn't just the heavy conversations with a psych or GP. Hope this helps somewhat. All the best,
yggdrasil
