Dear staralfur
I’d like to extend a very warm welcome to you to Beyond Blue and to thank you so much for providing your post.
You are NOT alone. I hope that helps, because it can be very scary to think all these things and then to wonder, is this just me – I bet no-one else feels like this? But we do, and there are so many of us in this boat, so I’m glad you’ve stood up and to say, “Hey, I’m here and I’m hurting”. I get everything you say and it all makes sense – to us on this site, yes it makes complete and utter sense.
Before I go much further though, I would like to say that your post was well written and expressed – so even though you may think that you speak and say the dumbest things, with your writing skill, this IS NOT the case. You put forward your thoughts and feelings very well. So I suspect you possibly do that with your general speaking role as well, it’s just that you beat yourself up about it and put yourself down, when perhaps you may well be a very harsh critic of yourself.
But I was also going to say that you mentioned you’re trying so hard – and yes, you must (we must)continue to do this – because it’s sad, but if we don’t, then for the most part, no-one else will – we need to be proactive to continue to keep fighting.
Do you work?
Do you have any close family members – someone who may be supportive of you?
May I ask what kinds of interests, hobbies, sports activities (if any) do you have??
Have you been to see a gp in recent times?
Sorry for the questions there, but just hope to get a response back so we can be better informed about you, so we can be better equipped to provide you with more useful and helpful advice.
Kind regards
Neil
