Introduction; Hi I am J I have bipolar and I would love to make some friends

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Hi my name is "J" as a pseudonym and I am a 26 year old female. I have had the mood disorder bipolar disorder since 2011. So far I have had 4 different types of episodes - so it makes my life and my carer's life a little more challenging to identify symptoms of bipolar. I rarely tell people I have bipolar - the stigma is still there, even though the psychiatrist says I'm an elevated person - I'm rather depressed and pessimistic. People treat me differently when I say bipolar yet if I said depression or anxiety it appears to be an accepted thing.

I've gone through a lot in 2018 for my 2nd last episode - ask If you want to - and to this day it still affects m - I think during that period of my time I literally became a broken person. It was one problem after the other.

I am being currently cared for but sometimes I get upset when he offhand says something like "taking you the hospital would've been easier" duding a tiff... I cried a bit he was the one who adamant about me not getting placed into the hospital.

I'd like to get to know more people who are like minded:

• I have a dog
• Does occasionally garden
• Likes knitting
• Positive mind set
• Creativity
• I have a few aquariums
• I am a closet otaku I like reading anime, manhwa, manhua - because I've quit smoking for almost a year now
• I am not sure if I am asking for too much but I am open minded
• I rarely drink its about like 5 days of the year if you want a number haha

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I forgot to state:

Megan was 20 a uni student in finance

I was 19 was working as a kitchen hand for few weeks

[Zonnekp]

Hi J,

In reality I do not have many friends, more like 3 or 4 I occasionally drink coffee with. Only one of them knows I am bipolar, the others think I have depression.

Yes, bipolar can play havoc with one's relationships and health and finances, etc... I have been lucky in that I have been relatively stable on my meds for the last 10 years. I tend more towards the depressive side.

I have been unemployed for the last 2 years now, trying to get back in the workforce but not having much luck so far. I recently completed my cert IV in Accounting and Bookkeeping and am waiting for the final results.

I like shopping, especially buying presents for the people I love. For myself I like jewellery, clothes and shoes.

My dog is a mutt whom we adopted from the RSPCA about 7 years ago. Love him to bits and he is very spoiled. Very loving and lovable.

I also do the occasional bit of gardening, but do not really have green fingers, though. There are a few plants I manage to keep alive hahaha.

I enjoy cooking and used to draw when I was younger. Nowadays I only do adult colouring in.

This is me.

Welcome to the forum.

ZonnekP

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Hi Zonnepkut. You are fortunate to have friends who are intuitive. I don’t have that.
My medication was stable in 2013. Mid-13 I enrolled at uni. Had an episode @ ’18. But it was hypo. My SO took time 2 care for me 24/7 and he ended up losing his job. Other issues occurred and it's a long list. This affected uni too – I studied up until week 9 of 13 weeks. Ever since ’18 I’ve been depressed, and it relates back 2 that list. For this episode I’ve pulled my finger out and said rather than think, say, just do the damn thing that’s annoying u.
I wish u luck on ur results. I’m still waiting to see if I can go 2 practical for 3rd year. I’m a pre-service teacher & this yr I planned a lot just in case sh*t happened – it did, With hypo episodes they’re small episodes but they suck the life out of u b'cos u bcome very aware & conscious of things. Not having sleep leads me to become turbulent.
I’m glad you feel loved & you love people. I’m a picky person on who I trust based on past experiences. I like rings -the ones with gold in them – I have sensitive skin. I love shoes too but my go to are my leather black converse or my faux saude lace boots. I keep gaining and losing weight – last time I shopped @ Millers lol I’m 26 but they do have some nice blouses appropriate for my pracs at school. My dog is a mutt I bought for $100. He’s my first dog, he’s 4. My SO wanted me 2 experience what an 8 week puppy was like. My dog was independent – wouldn’t play with me, he played with himself. During training, he was not food driven at all (only now) so I had to praise and pat. He is intelligent he probably knows 100+ words , hand signals & ring the bell 2 go outside with bell/door knob (potty training). I don’t exactly like him having routined bcoz he would whine 4 a walk e.g. He gets fed roughly the same time but yeah he’s too smart for me. But he is actually quite a gentle dog, even gentle with other dogs in the dog park.
I have the green thumb but when I have an episode I can't go outside I just feel sick
Don’t enjoy cooking but I've cooked, I used 2 draw too but it’s squiggles when I’m angry lol. I tried adult colouring and it wasn’t 4 me. I do this instead: https://www.16personalities.com/ 
I'm going 2 say I was just wanted 2 know for myself what kinds of these ideas resonated with me. I’ve done this this test 4 times when I felt my bipolar changing me. I’m a Logician, so far.
Thank u for introducing urself and 4 welcoming me to the forum
J

the word limit sucks