Hello reader,
I don't really know how to open this so I'll just jump in. I've been on the depression train for nearly 10 years now. I'm Male, I've gathered some pretty good knowledge on identifying my triggers and explaining what's going on with me to others. But theres one thing I just can't tackle and that's my ever waining libido.
I know I want to have sex, i think about it, but much like everything else, there is almost the adverse of motivation. It's probably too late to say its starting to effect my relationship, I've tried swapping medications, I'm on one currently that apparently doesn't interfere with your libido. I take care of myself regularly in that way, but it always seems habitual and almost like a chore.
I'm fresh out of ideas, we've tried spicing things up, spontaneity, and even planning a time. It doesn't work. When it does I'm often too quick out of the gate or pushing rope. I'm not in any kind of distressed headspace. I love my partner, I'm as attracted to her as ever, but I'm just never in the mood.
Those few times I am I feel embarrassed, and even start to defeat myself. I was a marathon man not 5 years ago, I'd stop for breaks and go for hours. It was a huge part of who I was, and it's just disappeared.
what can I do?
Did I burn it out with my brief years of heavy debauchery?
Is it as some of my friends say, just a part of a long term relationship (going on 4 years)
I rarely drink, I don't use drugs, I'm active in my work, I'm not unfit. What is it?
