I only have 4 months of school left and i have quite a big friendship group at school which would be amazing right?...
wrong!
the thing i can admit is that ill always be alone. I've never had a close friend that's NOT been one-sided, because i know I'm not theirs and i hate using the term "bff" its so cliche, but its so humbling when you say "your my best friend" and they wont say it back.
this is so aimed at one person but like idgaf
this person will forever choose their "popular friends" over me and that truly breaks my heart.
is it the way i look? the way i speak? like why cant i get equally returned love???
I just want someone to love me.
its always me starting convos or organizing plans with them, like if i stopped talking to them overall, they would even ask if i was okay. they would just let us drift.
i cant friendship break up with them, its not an option and i cant talk to them about it so it just feels like I'm digging myself a whole that goes deeper and deeper and deeper
i know ill always get chosen last and that really makes me upset. i wish being a human was easy.
After school i know ill barely have anyone left, so what does it feel like to be totally alone?
