i need a hug

[black_doggie]

hi all, i have appeared in "multicultural experiences" before, and i am going through depression and adhd at the same time.

idk but my mind is always messy. i just feel so stressed and depressed. it's just a bunch of negative emotions clinging together in my mind. sometimes i just wanna detach myself from the world, but i know i can't, because i just wanna look normal to everyone around me. after i was being hurt by my friend, i only find it comfortable to talk with trustable people who has gone through mental illness. and i always feel stuck deep in myself. i always can't fully express my negativity. i can't to explode wherever i am, even when i'm at home. i just keep peeling off skin of my fingers in class, because i feel really anxious and stressed. and i am recently extremely depressed because i cant see my favourite teacher anymore... that teacher really means a lot to me, i am just nothing without her in aus.

yeah. just simply a lot of negativity going on in my mind.

thank you for reading till here.

[wannabe_alpha]

Hello dear!

May I know your age if you dont mind?

I have gont through depression during school as well, though I think I dont have any chronic thing! However I also had been decieved bya guy whom I considered a good friend! See this happens in life! Dont take it so hard on you!.. Just try to make more friends, enjoy your life! Spend some quality time! You should be fine!

I would like to know more about you so that I can guide you more explicitly!

[therising]

Hi black doggie. Sending a hug your way!

It's definitely tough being normal in a world where the norm involves living up to a lot of people's unreasonable expectations. It tough to be normal in a world where the norm is often about being told to 'get on with things' or where we can't openly express our challenges without being criticised for being 'too sensitive' or 'too selfish'. The world is certainly a crazy insensitive place at times, especially for reasonable sane sensitive people like us.

Regarding your teacher, it can be hard when we lose contact with someone who naturally raises us to meet our potential and see the best version of our self. Wondering if there are any email contact details for your teacher. Just to drop her a line and say 'Just wanted to let you know at this challenging time in the world, you are an amazing person who makes such a positive difference'. Any teacher would love to hear such feedback, especially if they are teaching with the intention of serving their students in such a caring wholehearted way. You could always consider this message as a gift to give to her. A lot of teachers have it pretty tough at the moment, with a lot of added pressure.

Personally, I'm pretty done with 'normal'. I tried the world's version of 'normal' for many years, which left me thoroughly depressed. I spent a number of years in my own depression until I finally gave into being 'weird'. I love 'weird' and wouldn't consider living any other way. I'm one of those spiritual gals (of the non religious variety). I spent years dying my hair all different crazy colours even when it wasn't fashionable. I receive a fair amount of criticism in my life for my beliefs and choices but it doesn't worry me too much these days. 'Weird' has allowed to know the most natural version of myself and I have come to love myself after all this time.

Remember black doggie, one person's inner sanity is always going to appear different to another person's inner sanity. To each other they may appear completely insane. Express your self, no matter how crazy it makes you look (with a bit of self control for the sake of personal integrity). Your inner sanity, which leads you to want to vent and let go, is completely sane. Often, the crazy people around you have trouble listening.

Take care 🙂