Hi Mares,
Wow, I can't believe how you can do that ... provide that brilliant post on a phone. And the detail.
I'll leave off comments about your mum's 'tough love' ... but I think it's embedded into their psychey at whatever age your mum is ... or folk of that generation. They just say, 'come on cheer up', 'there's so many people worse off than you' 'what have you got to be depressed about'; etc etc ... oh great Neil ... you weren't going to comment on this.
It's damned awful that your new psych can't see you. Did they postpone it to another time/day? Do they not realise how important this is for you? But it sounds like they didn't offer you an alternative day and time! That's appalling.
I tell you what though Mares ... with the information that you've gathered from the mental health support systems and that is from speaking directly to professionals involved, this kind of information has got to be forwarded to people who can make things happen.
"Dear Beyond Blue, are you able to cut out some of Mares's comments from above and forward them to ... gee, I don't know ... but to me and I'll be so many others, it just doesn't seem good enough. When sufferers are in a shocking way, it's so distressing to hear about all the dead ends they are experiencing with trying to get appropriate support to assist them. And this is for people who are in need of extreme critical care and it just doesn't seem to be happening.
For Mares and for others who are in this dire situation, it must be frustrating as hell for them to get fobbed off so often. It upsets me to read about it. I just wonder what we can do about it.
End of rant to Beyond Blue - thanx for reading."
Back to my friend ... Maresy, I know GA mentioned something along these lines but is it possible to just tell your mum that today, you simply cannot go anywhere and you will stay home and look after things.
You did mention that at least you're in a safe place and I feel comfortable in that knowledge.
I have my psychologist appointment tomorrow (Thursday - the dreaded, 13th Feb ... it's one of my awful dark days of the year - at 3.20pm, all those years ago, I stuffed up and ....... yeah, enough about me), but I am looking forward to my appointment. You oughta see the printed pages of stuff that I'm taking along with me - just as references for how I've been travelling.
Mares, I'm so pleased that you continue to post and it's great to hear from you. You have so much support here and so many wonderful kind people here have you in their thoughts.
Take care my special friend
Neil
ps: I've said it before and I'll say it again ... if ever a group of us were to meet, I would most definitely burst into tears. Yeah, that'd be a great positive first impression wouldn't it Neil !!!
