I just want someone to care

[Tomato_]

Hi I go by tomato 🍅, I’ve never used this before so I’m not quite sure but I’ll try it. I’m not sure if this is because of my depression or anxiety or OCD but I thought it would be best to share it here. My friend has not been responding to any of my texts. Not when I said happy birthday or when I asked if she was ok. I asked my friends if she was responding to them and she has been every day. When my friend texted happy birthday she got the response I love you. And it’s made me feel like she doesn’t care and I was worried she was mad at me. Finally she responded to me today and I was super happy. She was even meeting one of my other friends at school so I went to see her. She didn’t even look happy to see me and went straight to talking to my other friend. No hi. No smile. Now I feel like she doesn’t care again. Like hello you see her every week and haven’t seen me in months. I’m literally staying alive for her and she doesn’t care. Now I feel terrible and can’t get anything done cus I think my life is pointless and no one cares about me. But literally no one does and what’s the point? I seriously can’t deal with anything anymore. Dw I’m all good and safe tho. Wish I could actually talk to my psychiatrist about any of this but I never can. I’ve only just started being able to type stuff out on my phone and show him which is helping. Anyway thats it

[quirkywords]

Welcome to the forums and  thanks for sharing. I am sorry you are feeling that your friend is not responding to your texts. I know it can feel very isolating w hen a friend doesn’t reply. 
I am sorry you feel life is pointless. We are listening here and you are not Sloane.

Do you find writing down your thoughts has helped. I try writing down my thoughts when I am sad and it can help.

feel free to write here as much as you like. 

[BurntCrumpet]

I see you. Thanks for posting. Putting stuff in phone to show psych is an awesome idea.