I hear you Nightstand! I had the same experience growing up, and then *suddenly* I came across others from 'my tribe' and things were looking up. That largely happened because I gave up on 'trying to be like...' (likeable, really) and cut myself some slack about being different from 'everyone else'. Part of that was learning to like my own company... easier said than done, I know... but thinking about the sort of 'me' that was likely to fit in elsewhere wasn't that comforting when I really thought about it.
My life has changed again, and I'm now in a situation where I no longer fit in — again — but I guess I know it IS just a matter of time... your tri be are out there somewhere, and they will not be able to recognise you as a fellow traveller if you disguise yourself as 'just like everybody else'. Unless you are wont to do very unpleasant or antisocial things, just be yourself and don't hide the real you... you'll be recognised soon enough!
Of course, being an engineer, I want to 'fix' things, so if you want to engage in some back-and-forth discussion as to how you might narrow that search for your tribe down (what are your hobbies, interests, dreams,. happy-buttons) I'm happy to respond, but please know you are not alone... just currently seperated from your future support network, and spending some 'me' time getting to know yourself a little better! All the best.
