I have no energy anymore

[Baileybasil]

I have nothing to live for, my psychiatrist put me on another pill when I went in to complain about and change the medication I’m on. Now I’m all doped up and nothing is changing. My ex is sending me videos of her with other guys. I’m so sad. I told my gp I’m suicidal and all he said was lower my dose of medication and wait 4 weeks. No one cares. I’m alone. I have nothing.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Baileybasil
 
Thanks for sharing whats going on for you.

It sounds like you're struggling and that no one is supportive which is a horrible feeling for anyone. We're concerned about your thoughts of suicide and we are sending a private email to check in with you. Please check your inbox.

We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
 
If thoughts of self harm or suicide have in fact returned to you today, where you feel like acting on those thoughts, then this is an emergency, and you should call 000 immediately.

[On The Road]

Baileybasil, just run into your post.

I'm sorry that you are suffering from all of these 😞 the psychiatrist and the GP have to go through their heavy workload and it seems they couldn't feel you and know you very well.

I hope you may need to cut off the connection with your ex who seems doesn't do any help at the moment.

It's been five days I wonder how you going right now. All I can give you is a virtual hug. I hope everything could go smoother for you.

Take care

[Sophia16]

Hi,

It looks like you are struggling and going through a tough time. I know you are feeling alone but just remember we are all here for you.

The BB community is so welcoming and we don't want to see you struggling.

How do you usually cope in these situations? DO you have any close family members?

Please stay safe and I am here to chat if you need me.

[Baileybasil]

I don’t deal with it just dwell on my own. I’m at the end of my rope. This is the worst Christmas I’ve had to live through.

I don’t want to cut contact she was the only thing I had to look forward to when I woke up, now it’s nothing but pain and dreaming of death.

I literally have nothing going for me. No reason to keep going, nothing to be proud of. Just regret. Meds, doctors. Nothing helps.

Yes I have family but I’m too awkward I can’t even tell them I love them. I’m not even sure I do

[Sophie_M]

Hey Bailey,
Thanks for reaching out this afternoon, 
It sounds like this Christmas has been very difficult for you and we're sorry this is the case. We know it may be hard to do right now but there is a lot to live for, please remember the people and moments you love. We're concerned about your safety and have sent a private email to check in with you.  We hope you know that there is always help available to you. We would urge that you do seek professional support to help you work through these thoughts that you're experiencing. If you are not sure of how to access mental health support, please contact the Beyond Blue Support Service anytime on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport

[On The Road]

Hi Bailey,

I'm very sorry to hear that you have to live through this. I can see your ex is the significant person in your heart, you still care much about her and it is overwhelming for you to go through this. For many people, Christmas is when they feel more vulnerable and emotional, is there anything that can make you feel better to spend this holiday? I hope you already sought professional support as Sophie put above. and like Sophia said, please share with us we are here to listen.

[Ramblify]

Hi Baileybasil,

I get that you don’t want to cut contact with your ex; but think about it this way, she is not interested in perusing a relationship with you. She has moved on and so should you. I get that it’s hard! I’ve been there too. But she isn’t looking out for your best interests. You have to step up and be responsible for you own feelings. If you feel hurt and betrayed, abandoned, you need to practice self care. It’s probably something you’ve never heard of? It means trying to think about how you want to be treated by other people. What you will and won’t take from people. But most importantly how you treat yourself. If you can’t be kind to yourself, how can you be kind to anyone else. Trust me. It all starts with you. Day by day; just plant small seeds of positive thoughts - and over time I promise you they will grow into something beautiful!
best wishes,

Ramblify

[geoff]

Hello Baileybasil, I am so sorry I didn't read your post and thoroughly apologise because I can definitely relate to your comment, but I don't want to take away how you are feeling but perhaps I need to quickly mention it, sorry for doing so.

Once my 25 year marriage ended my wife found someone to share a flat with, like you, it frustrated me, why so quickly and why with a person much older than her, but she was the one who initiated the divorce and there was no point criticising her because she had left and divorced me, different to the situation you're in, but how you are feeling is exactly how I was.

To see any videos or photos of her with other people is not what you want to see, it only highlights what you shouldn't see and could be doing this to annoy you, block them, the more you see them the more upset you'll become.

No medication can replace a lost g/friend, it may help to be consoled by friends/family and these people will understand how difficult it is for you and definitely be gentle with you.

I feel for you so much and hope you let us support you.

My best.

Geoff.

[Baileybasil]

She was the only thing keeping me going now I have nothing.

Positive self talk doesn’t work for me, it feels so wrong and I stop myself.

I can’t see a psychologist until march I honestly don’t think I’ll make it. There’s nothing in my life worth living for