depression or something more?

[sometimeshappysometimessa]

I need help. I probably won't be able to explain this but here we go. I was originally diagnosed with depression but something isn't right.
I had a brain injury 19 years ago and I'm still having problems. I've gotten so much better but I still have memory issues, I can't focus for long periods of time, generally can't focus on what people are saying, can't control my emotions for periods, whether it's sad, happy, or angry.. overthinking absolutely everything, I think I always think something will go wrong at any time so I'm always in a kind of fight or flight? overstimulated & overwhelmed easily & sometimes I cannot for the life of me make decisions. when I have to learn something new I memorise as opposed to actually learning whatever it is. when people talk it goes in one ear and out the other and then I beat myself up for not really listening. generally I don't drink a lot of alcohol but when I do, I go a bit overboard. I have forgotten appointments in the past because I was distracted. i have a social phobia outside my immediate family and a few close friends. other than them, I don't really talk to people. Not because I don't want to, I'm just so bloody afraid. i get so super stressed or angry about minuscule things, I've noticed I spend a lot of money over a short period of time. Sometimes if I see a thing I want to buy, I won't be able to relax until I have it. I don't feel safe driving all the time because the attention just isn't there
I think I know what "it" is & I need different treatment
I had a letter to a psychiatrist faxed away and now we wait.

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

What you have described can be associated with any number of mental illnesses and in the cas eof memory loss medication can have effect as can stress etc. So you can see that unless you get a up to date diagnosis there is not much point worrying about what it could be.

EG I was diagnosed with ADHD in 2003. 6 years later I was diagnosed with bipolar 2, depression, dysthymia etc. Symptoms hadnt changed, I got a 2nd opinion and the original diagnosis was wrong. However hypomania from bipolar mimicked mania from ADHD and so on. This is why we need regular assessments.

You impulsivity is something I had when younger, couldnt wait to buy my next car and I had 80! So I would highly recommend you seek further advice from a professional. Start with your GP

TonyWK

[HappyHelper88]

Hey there

im so sorry your experiencing this even though the injury was some time ago it may have an impact on you still

I'm so glad that you have some idea about what it is and have organised a letter to the psychiatrist
even talking to a psychologist could be beneficial

All the best and please reach out if you need