I feel isolated

[Chris D]

Tonight this thursday evening, even though i am not alone i feel isolated, i feel alone. It's like one day or one hr i could be feeling gd and getting into tv shows that i am watching but sitting here in the lounge room at this very moment things have very much gone down hill for no apparent reason. I'm not just that i feel sad, it's more it's thoughts that i have not had since before Christmas.

I know that i do get support from all of you here at BB and people who i see though the week but i can't explain it. Why it changes in an instant and this time there were no warning signs, usually i can recognise the swigns and use the tools i have in place to combat these thoughts. 

Reading other people's threads and the responses they get, i'm a person that is very sensitive, i know this forum is here for everyone. I think what i'm trying to say is that i need support at the moment. I'm trying to say something without offending or upsetting anyone. I can't think of the words now there gone.

Chris

[Neil_1]

Hi Chris  

You don’t say anything that offends or upsets … you provide really inspirational posts with words that jump out at you with the sole purpose to try and make all of us (including yourself) feel better.  That takes a lot of energy to do that and it always pleases me when I see the posts that you do.  

The feelings that you’re feeling I can relate to … where you can get support from people here (or in person) and one minute it makes you feel good or better and then barely anytime later, you’re feeling flat again.  It’s almost like the words just float into your head and then as they leave, they produce some kind of chemical which then erases the fact that the ‘feel good’ responses were ever there in the first place.  

You know you’ve got so much support here Chris … and it’s things like this which is brilliant that you did … to reach out and ask for support.  I think I can understand you with what you’re saying, in that, I hurt too, can someone please give me some support.  I hope that’s what you’re meaning … and it’s so good for you to reach out and ask … because sometimes if we don’t hear from someone for a while, we might just feel that they might be doing ‘ok’.  

How are you travelling today?

And can you let me know (for no particular purpose) who are your three most listened to bands at the moment?  I just get a feel that you really enjoy your music and it’s good, cause I think music can be such a good therapy option at times.  

Cheers my friend  

Neil