dear Gibby, I'm sorry but your depression and not being able to see the one you love has unfortunately caused this.
You just like I did drank alcohol to numb our feelings, however it can go the other way as well as we can become even more upset.
At first it does it job at first by blocking out those bad feelings, but as you drink more then that's when your depression can then become emotionally distraught, and by smoking pot only encourages you to drink more.
I am caught between your drinking and not, I can't condone what you are doing, because I did it, but in hindsight I know that it's only delaying your recovery, whereas I know other people are entitled to their view and that would be to stop drinking, but you won't be able to do this until you get professional help.
I know the desperation that you are suffering from and this includes the job that you hate, which we can talk about on the next post, because there's a bit to think about. Geoff.
