I don’t know

[Hanz98]

I hate getting out of bed, I hate talking to new people, I hate knowing I have to go somewhere especially because I’m afraid I might see or smell something that reminds me of the past I’m trying to get away from, I haven’t been shopping for myself in about a year, I can’t sleep most of the time because I keep replaying things that happened in my life, I breakdown in the worst of time, I regret making myself look like such a fool and always trying to help people when knowone understands or listens to me, I sometimes wish I was put in a box of some sort with no door and I’m just alone with my thoughts cradling myself, I feel that I need that we’ll actually want that but my family is always around and telling me to get out of my room, I wish I was alone but I wish someone understands me.

[geoff]

Hello Hanz, and a warm welcome and sorry that you are trying to cope with this which I think is called ruminating, although I'm not qualified to make this comment, however, that's what my psychologist said to me what it's called, it's a long and difficult word, perhaps you can type it in the search bar above and see what appears and perhaps it's related to having OCD which I have.

It may also involve intrusive thoughts which I also have as well as many other people.

I'm curious as to whether or not you have had a doctor's diagnosis because once you know may then be able to concentrate on how to help you.

Would really like to hear back from you when you're available.

Take care.

Geoff.