I don't know what to do

[kissmyaussieart]

Hi all,

I'm sure many people have also been affected by the situation at hand, but I've found I think I've nearly hit my personal rock bottom.

I'm 18, I was starting uni at my dream course this year, and was making so many friends, and I had a job that I loved, and was working on improving my relationship with my family. I have now lost uni (I study art so obviously practical classes can't be taught online), I've lost work, my parents are causing me stress again (my mum called me "sad guts" behind my back and complained to go back to work faster), and my two best friends currently aren't talking to me. I'm constantly at the verge of tears and I'm really lost on what I can do. My phone call psychologist appointment isn't for another two weeks, and I feel like I can't reach out to anyone anymore since they're sick of my sadness.

I'm trying so hard to be productive, but every day it gets harder and harder. I'm tired all the time, but struggle to sleep. I don't want to sleep at night because that's when my family is quiet. I'm struggling to eat, I just feel sick all the time. I'm at a loss on what to do, I just really need help. Currently the good things I guess are the fact I'm still slowly doing art at home, and I play animal crossing to escape reality a lot right now. I just feel like I worked so hard to improve in my anxiety and depression and now it's gone backwards and I don't know what to do.

Any advice or kind words would be appreciated. Thank you.

[RJ_3]

Hi kissmyaussieart

I love your name! And I love that you are doing art at home to keep your dreams going. That's amazing. A lot of people would have just stopped because everything was too hard. But you haven't. I've also been trying to keep myself positive doing things I love. I'm currently knitting and sewing a couple of blankets which I'll give to my mum's residential care home and I'm making a scrapbook of quotes that I liked that I've found online.

Everything is certainly different at the moment and of course we're not quite sure when it will all end but it will end and then we'll all work out how to get back to our lives and keep going. I think you sound terrific and I'd be really interested to hear about your art.

Look after yourself x

Robyn

[kissmyaussieart]

Hey Robyn,

Thank you hahaha! I'm trying my best but like I said it is definitely hard. I find I feel worse if I do nothing so doing something just helps me feel better about everything. It's cool that you're knitting and sewing still! I should pick up knitting again, I was working on a scarf for a while but gave up hahaha.

It's definitely hard and I hope you're doing well. I'm not sure where to start with my art that you'd like to know? I do portraits mostly! I started studying at National Art School this year though so I was hoping to explore different styles and techniques. For now I'm just doing what I can in my home.

Thanks for responding too, it was nice to get a response 🙂

[RJ_3]

Hi again

You must be talented to get into National Art School. And to do portraits seems particularly tricky. That's awesome! I guess most people will be in the same boat with their studying so hopefully once all this is over you'll all be able to start where you left off. I think I'm doing okay. Having a couple of extra psychologist visits lately to try and keep things right in my head. I have my ups and downs as we all do so just trying to get on with things and keep going :)

Is it possible to look up some new techniques online and give them a try while you're at home? Or maybe that's a ridiculous idea. I'm not sure. But either way, I hope your art keeps you happy while we all get through this situation together.

[mocha delight]

Hi kissmyaussieart if you ever need to chat know that I’m here for you ok