I don’t feel good most days but I’m very sane.

[Dockk]

Look, I’ll be clear with myself first, I don’t feel good most evenings. I’m still happy on top but I’m not in a good place. I can tell I’m deteriorating and a rate which I find very concerning. I have good friends who know about my depression and anxiety but I think my problems are getting to a place that I don’t think I feel comfortable talking to them about. I don’t know. But I know one thing though is that I’m becoming more and more condescending, nervous anxious and depressed with my life. And sometimes i tend to act like I don’t know that all this is happening. I’ve never been diagnosed, so I’m not the judge of my mental state but I can tell that I’m not thinking correctly. Who knows? Uhhh anyway, am I wrong to feel how I feel about my situation

[Peppermintbach]

Hi Dockk,

It sounds as though you’re really struggling, & that things are gradually worsening for you emotionally. I also get a sense that you’re feeling alone or isolated in your struggles. You have friends, as you said, but don’t feel as though you can confide in them...

I feel for your feelings of confusion & uncertainty. I think your feelings are very valid, not “wrong” as you put it.

I wonder, just as a gentle suggestion, if you would be able to book an appointment with your GP. Depending on the situation, it’s possible that they might suggest a FaceTime or Skype session.

Regardless of how your GP would like to conduct the appointment, I would suggest discussing your struggles with him/her, & enquiring about a mental health care plan. Basically, if deemed suitable, the care plan would entitle you to a certain number of Medicare rebatable visits to a psychologist for support.

I wonder, is that something that you might like to consider?

Thank you so much for reaching out. I think it’s brave to admit when we are struggling.

Kindness and care,

Pepper

[geoff]

Hello Dockk, and thank you for posting your comment.

You can't be wrong in thinking about how you feel, I'm sure everyone feels the same way, it's impossible not to, and what we think and what we tell others are two completely different issues.

What we say to friends, family or workmates depends largely on their reaction, whether they are supportive or whether they don't want anything to do with us, and once we know we react accordingly.

It's easy to pretend that on the outside there is nothing wrong, but inside the pain is terrible and eventually it can overpower us and cut off any communication with people who may be caring, but showing it in another way we don't recognise.

When you feel like this and have been for quite a while then there is help out there for you, by starting with your doctor.

If you are able to, write down what's been happening in all the different situations and circumstances you are involved in, this will ease the pressure when your doctor asks you 'how can I help you'.

Hope to hear back from you.

Geoff.

[mocha delight]

Hi dockk sometimes we can’t help how we feel but if you ever wanted to chat please know I’m here for you. I’ve tried to reach out to 2 family members but that did not go well at all and I’ve not been diagnosed with anything yet but I’m in my third week of being on a antidepressant which my gp prescribed for me as I had handed her a list of symptoms/signs of depression I was experiencing & there seems to be family history of depression (have a cousin diagnosed with bipolar 1 and depression) but no one else diagnosed with anything although I highly suspect there’s other family members with some form of depression but not been diagnosed or not that I know of.