Hi Jesse,
It's really good that you recognise it's not good for you. There's a thread somewhere, I think it's in long term support or maybe staying well, something about beating the booze started by Kazzl. I'd suggest having a poke around there and feel free to post as well.
Really important, as you say, to stay clean and sober.Such hard work, so I feel for you. I do a fairly good job at the whole "moderation" thing, but the temptation is always there. Depression's so difficult at times.
Do you think you can get some sleep tonight? That might help for the next few hours until your head's cleared up a bit. (I hope you're already in bed by the time I send this!)
I'm sure you've heard before, but there's no need to compare ourselves against others. We all have our strong points even if they seem invisible to us. Here's one of yours: you seem very in tune with yourself and your feelings, even if you don't know how to act on your gut instincts. That's okay; we're only young still. There's time 🙂
James
