How much more pain can I suffer? Help

aussiestorm · ‎05-04-2020

I feel like I am losing my mind with the lockdown. I tend to dwell on things too much. The online learning for my child is not really difficult just frustrating. I feel like giving up. My child tells me that I'm the best mum and of course I turn around and say that I'm not. I have cried myself to sleep only to wake up 10 mins later to think about nothing. I've been put down my whole life so I don't knoww how to get myself out of this dark shadow. My headspace is saying if you didn't wake up would you be missed? I feel that people in my community think that since I'm a SAHM that I am not as important as others. I haven't got sour grapes as I'm doing everything humanely possible to educate my child. He misses the interaction with other children and I've explained to him heaps of times that he can't because of the coronavirus. I need help

Just Sara · ‎05-04-2020

Hey there frustrated mum; welcome to BB forum!

I totally understand where you're coming from. Being a mum on our best days is hard enough without the challenges of lock-down.

(I'm not sure what SAHM is, could you explain it to me please? I'm sorry for my ignorance)

Do you have family or friends to talk with, or other mums who feel the same? Our phones are a blessing in times such as this.

From what you've said, it seems you've struggled with depression before? Have you spoken to your GP about it?

I know caring for our kids is a full time job, but taking care of you is important too. Are there activities that make you feel better? I like to watch non-serious YouTube short videos to side-track my thoughts. My fave's are; Say Yes to the Dress, America/Britain/Australia's Got Talent, any singing competition shorts and '5 minute crafts ideas'.

Changing our brain chemicals is as easy as redirecting our focus. And, laughter of course is the best medicine.

I hope I haven't come across too blaze', our kids are a constant and dealing with them unfortunately, isn't a choice. So finding stuff to help us through, (me time) is totally deserved.

I'm here ok...

Kind thoughts;

Sez