Hiccups.

[G484]

Gday gday

Im a second year at uni and been flipping in and out of depression and anxiety for a few years, and not sure why but suddenly I’m plagued with the feeling of not understanding what’s wrong with me, this incessant need to feel deflated and useless- what’s the point.

On above avg dose of AD but I’m not sure if they’re not working, or I’m just that sad. I feel like I do nothing but despise my soggy minds obsession of asking me why and if I’m still depressed. This unrelenting sinking feeling of uselessness and not caring about anything is so so damn draining.

For me, anxiety is like having the hiccups, violent and fills the capacity of my mind, but then it stops and I’m constantly on the cusp of waiting for the next one- that throat choking can’t breathe need to swallow type thing.

[PamelaR]

Hi G484 and welcome

Yep, anxiety can be the pits at times. I do like your analogy with hiccups. Yes, it is a bit like isn't it?

In addition to the medication you are on, are you seeing a health professional, e.g. a psychologist? I find I couldn't do without seeing someone, especially when my anxiety is on the up.

Have you browsed or searched our forums? There are quite a lot of discussions going on about how to self help anxiety. Unfortunately I've come to the realisation it's always going to be there and I have to manage it when it raises its head. Not something you want to hear I'm sure, though learning to cope is part of the way to feel better.

If and when you want to, feel free to do searches using the search field at the top of our webpage. Some keywords:

• self help tips for managing anxiety
• anxiety
• study tips and tricks
• anxiety study

Hope some of this helps G484. Keep reaching out if and when you want.

Kind regards

PamelaR

[romantic_thi3f]

Gday G484,

Welcome to the forums and thanks for reaching out. I'm sorry that you're struggling with this and having a hard time - but I am glad that you're here.

One of the things you said in your post sang out to me - the idea that you're "plagued with the feeling of not understanding what’s wrong with me". Is this the idea of not understanding how depression and anxiety works? and understanding how anxiety pops up and goes away like hiccups rather than feeling so random?

What do you think might be helpful here for you to manage and work through all of this stuff? PamelaR mentioned a few key words, but I guess I'm more interested in what you feel you need or want to know so we can support you best.

[G484]

Honestly to hear other people’s perspectives and experiences. I understand depression and anxiety, what I mean is my own mental obsession with feeling really depressed and another side of me always asking why- in turn giving me anxiety.

Had a few things that I suppose were not great happen as a younger teen and I really don’t want to bring them up again with a psych, itd push me over the edge and with uni I really can’t afford to be completely dysfunctional.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi G484,

Sure, that makes sense. You're welcome to browse our depression and anxiety threads, since you'll find a lot of people sharing their own experiences in their own thread. You're also welcome to ask me any questions since I have both anxiety and depression too.

How are things going with your psych so far? It makes sense that you wouldn't want to be bringing up some difficult things from your past and I totally see where you're coming from, but at the same time if they're affecting you so much today it'd be hard to push that away maybe? Especially if all of these feelings that you're having now are from stuff that happened when you were younger.