Hey :)

[Jamie-75]

Not really sure where to start,this will be the very first time ive ever reached out looking for help,i'm nearly 50 and up until now i've kept everything bottled up most of my life,the face i show people outside of my house is totally different from the one i have behind a closed door,sometimes everything just starts to spill over and my head feels like there's to much noise happening and i start crashing and my emotions go haywire,working in a highly stressful environment doesn't help either,think it just adds fuel to the fire a lot of times but sort of stuck between a rock and a hard place where work is concerned. I probably know i have some sort of depression but can't get enough courage to actually talk to someone in person,even doing this is hard for me but i'm trying,i know if i don't try, things are just going to keep getting worse,hoping down the track i might be able to talk to someone face to face but for now just sort of vent through here,thx for listening 

[randomxx]

Hi there Jamie. Sorry to hear about things but eh, at least you've taken this first step, that's a big start , even if you just talk around here at least it's getting out.

l've found the ph help lines helped me a lot to , sometimes l've just needed to get it out bc there's no one in my world l'd wanna go into things in person with.

Are there reasons your feeling the way you are, life, where your at, marriage, work, loneliness or something specific ? For me it's a bit of most of those but mainly my housing situation and the way that's turning out, l'm nearly 60ish myself , as well as my love life, lack of now and the way that's turning out to. All another story l've just started a new thread to.

Thing is though for me there's reasons for my depression, maybe for you to and if so are there changes you could make in those? l've done huge things last 12mths trying to tackle mine and still at it, we shall see l spose, need more time, but l have hope.

Hang in there anyway.

rx

[Jamie-75]

Think my reasons are sometimes a lot of things,a draining job,being single and just too scared to get out and try again knowing things will prob just f up again like previous relationships,debt,death in the family,where i live,pretty much been like it since i was a teenager,it feels like life  just keeps giving me the middle finger,i get a good patch then things just go to shit,some people can handle stress,nervousness  etc but i'm not one of them,at the moment i still have several outlets to combat all my crap hence the occasional good patches i get

[randomxx]

Gday Jamie. lt sounds for you a lot like me it's more circumstances the bring you so low . This is just me but in a way l'd sort of prefer that bc clinical depression is l'd guess more a health thing that's very hard to fix where as circumstances , well they can be hard to but at least those things can change.

l was lucky work wise bc l worked for myself at home but it was outside from my workshop and great therapy getting out to work. Could you back work off in some way ,hrs or the load , change jobs, or something ? Seems to be so many people here with work stuff bringing them down one way or other, real shame, seems to be lots pf work pressures these days one form or other. l'm not working now and hope to stop from here but finances aren't that great, working on it. l 've got a living situation problem to now myself, long story but if l can get rid of the property lve got now, really hoping l can find and afford something suits me better.  Love life, down the toilet, but like ya say trying again , just dk myself but l do prefer a partner and really miss that - even though it's certainly a lot less hassle single for sure.