Having a tough time

[gloria10]

Hi,

It has been a while since I've been on Beyond Blue. I felt for a while I was managing things okay, but depression has recently returned. I've been dealing with a bit as I've recently lost my dad, so I feel I've needed to be extra support for mum. She is doing better now so I think it's an emotional release and I can finally take care of myself.

It got to the better of me last week after an interview when they criticized my work history as I've had a lot of short contracts (some of that due to Anxiety and Depression affecting my work). I have improved with my last contract and was able to last for the whole length, which I was happy with, but after the interview, I felt completely knocked down and like it was all for nothing.

I was just so surprised that it hit me so hard, I don't normally let people get to me like that. I'm just wondering if anyone has dealt with this sort of thing before and how did you bounce back? I'm just finding it hard to get back into job hunting now.

Gloria10

[Sophie_M]

Hi gloria10,

Welcome back to the forums; I'm glad to hear that things had been stable for a while. though sorry that they're on a bit of downturn again. 

Job interviews, and job hunting in general, can be such a stressful and nerve-wracking process that I think anyone would find it hard not to let it get to them, especially after a negative experience like that. I want to give the rest of our community an opportunity to chime in, but I just wanted to say that it felt like they hadn't really evaluated your application as a whole during the interview; it makes sense why you would feel so down, and I think it is also worth giving yourself credit for going through all of this and acknowledging how hard it's been.

You're right to highlight and recognise all the progress and achievements you've made (e.g. finishing up the entirety of your last contract), and I hope you can continue doing so and being gentle with yourself as well. 

[gloria10]

Hi Sophie_M,

Thank you for your kind words. I agree they didn't review my resume properly. Rather than seeing skills applicable for the job, they criticized what I didn't have or didn't do. I understand if I wasn't selected for the role, or they already had their candidates, but I was really surprised by their behavior.

I'm going to have a little break as I was starting to get agitated at simple things, which I know can be a result of depression. Hopefully this will help to clear my head so if something does come up, I can be rested.