Thank you all for your kind messages. I went for a walk and visited a friend yesterday. She suffered from depression in the past and has not worked since (about 18 yrs ago). She is on medication and has found solace in God. (I am not religious) She seems to have accepted things and is reasonably happy now. She gives me encouragement and moral support.
Back to work today after 3 weeks off. I don't like my job and there is not much to do. Another factor contributing to me depression.
I went to a fitness session tonight for half an hour which has improved my mood. This will last for a couple of hours. I am ready for bed. I go to bed early. My psych tells me to stay up til 9pm. I will wake up in the middle of the night with anxiety and then I won't sleep properly til 5am when I get up to get ready. (I commute a long distance)
I really struggled at work today. I pull my hair which is a bad habit. I am even talking openly about my anxiety with some colleagues as there is acknowledgement of this in my team because of their own personal and family experiences.
Just wish I had love in my life. Its been a long time since I had someone to love and vice versa.
