@GetBetter
Hey, thanks for posting. Here's what I think in answer to your questions:
Anyone in a similar situation?
Definitely. As this forum shows, there are loads of people who feel the same as what you've described and these are just the stories that are being shared. I know that doesn't make it easier, but at least it might be a comfort to know you're not alone.
Should I see somebody?
Yes, I think so. My anxiety began a few years ago and after struggling for a while, my GP referred me to a psychologist. It's not a miracle cure but it really did help me to cope and to get a better perspective on things, as well as learn about what I was dealing with. Once you have spoken with someone who knows about this kind of thing, you might also get a better idea of whether or not you would benefit from medication.
Should I just eat a spoon of cement?
Maybe don't, it sounds dangerous. But also, I think the 'toughen up' mentality should be reserved for people whose biggest complaints are the quality of plane food and that Game of Thrones isn't on Netflix. Mental health issues are impervious to the toughest of toughening up.
The fact that you're dealing with this on a daily basis and still managing to function proves that you're being tough already. This isn't something that you're doing wrong or failing at. It's just something that happens to some (a lot) of people and it sucks. But it does get better and with some help and understanding you'll get there faster.
Really hope you see the GP and ask for a referral to a psychologist and stay active on these forums for some support too.
And I know it sounds lame but be kind to yourself. No point in punishing yourself with guilt or shame for something over which you have no control.
Also, congrats on quitting smoking! See, you're plenty tough!
All the best 🙂
