Forecast: Hollow with a chance of cloud and shower

[Sparklemuffin]

I am not entirely sure what I’m doing here. It’s hard to find an outlet for your words where they can be heard. Because when you’re feeling like I am right now, there isn’t a single word I can utter to convey these hollowness , or even a single person who’d be willing to listen.

Because right now, at this very moment , I am the only thing existing in this universe of mine along with it’s great big hole. No amount of music, stories or memes can fill its ache.

I know I’ll be fine in the morning, I think. ‘Fine’ is probably just the mask for it. Though it might be stronger in daylight. It might hold for a day or a week or even a month. But eventually it will crumble and I’ll return to my universe of one.

Even in my dark phase, I can’t use straight words to express. I need these weird images to hide behind. Who knows what my problem is. Surely not me. Maybe someone?

Anyone?

[MsPurple]

Hi Sparklemuffin and welcome to the forums.

I hear you loud and clear. Sometimes I am struggling mentally, however I can not word or articulate how I am feeling to others. I am high functioning, so people think, 'oh she is fine' but inside I maybe a wreck. I feel like a fraud because I am ok, yet not ok at the same time.

I find talking to my therapist is helpful, they are helping me with expressing my emotions. They help explain ways to word it or strategies on how to explain my feelings to loved ones so they can get a better understanding.

I sometimes explain images to help explain how I am feeling. I wonder if this is how the idea of 'the black dog' to explain depression came about?

I just want you to know is that learning how to word your feelings takes time. Some people maybe about to explain it easily, however others aren't.