Hi grace.overflowing
It is such a beautiful time of life, to begin connecting more with your natural self. From my own experience, this can also be one of the most challenging times of life. It can almost feel like a constant fight with the people around you. Looking back, I've come to better understand what the fight was really about and I wonder if you can relate.
- If the natural you is not a constant people pleaser, others will fight to get back the people pleaser in you because it suits them for you to please them
- If the natural you is a questioner of all things questionable, others will fight to get back the non questioner in you because it suits them better not to be questioned so much
- If the natural you is highly energetic, others may fight to get back the less energetic version of you because they're not so energetic or enthusiastic about life. They can't do high energy like you can
- If you've met with the you who is a natural problem solver (solutions just suddenly come to you from out of the blue and they're pretty amazing), people who prefer to complain rather than have problems solved may not like the natural problem solver in you. They'll want the listener back, who listens to complaints and that's it
It's a super long list, so I won't go on. I suppose you could say it's like you're vibing up to a whole new level to find a sense of heaven on earth, coming to know your natural self, and people around you are fighting to bring you back down to a kind of hell on earth. Myself, I lived within a depression for quite a number of years earlier in my life and it definitely felt like hell on earth at times. Grace, you're in the process of raising yourself, so don't let anyone bring you down. In this process, many people report friends and family members naturally drifting away from them. They say it leaves room for people to come in who are going to raise them further. I have personally found this to be the case. These are genuine people (without an agenda) who'll be inspiring and encouraging in your way forward.They'll be like guides for you.
You mention 'I think I just need to figure out who I am and take time to improve myself'. You're spot on. From my experience, make sure you're turning to mastering your natural self and you're not re-turning to your old self just because it's easier. I've found it also pays to ask 'Does my new self not enjoy the same hobbies as my old self?' There may be good reason why those hobbies no longer interest you.
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