G’day Matty,
That’s good news. I think you should try to stop second guessing everything otherwise you are going to send yourself over the edge. You need to accept what has happened has happened and you can’t change it, you can only shape the future and you are doing everything in your power you can and that’s all you can ask of yourself. You know you have done some bad things you have told us already and people take time to forgive but forgiveness only comes when they feel you have changed or are trying to change and obviously you most certainly are trying. I also want to say that worrying about what other people think does not change what they think, you can only control you and your thoughts so start there and the rest will follow. I can see you have been shocked by all this and maybe it was something that had to happen for you to get in touch with yourself and take control, you have done that and you are now on the right path.
It’s 2 weeks till the court date so I recommend you sit down and put together a timetable for every day till then and fill the timetable with “you” time. Book times for your work, your self-help sessions, professional session times, exercise times, writing time, cooking time, etc etc. Use the next two weeks to process and be the best person you can be when you enter that courtroom, I understand you have more work and more worries ahead but you can only affect today so live for today and plan for the future.
Thinking of you, good luck and take care,
Michael
