feeling very hopeless

[hawaiian_robot]

hi all, no caps because not feeling up to typing properly

life is in a bit of a rut, can't see things improving anytime soon. have been out of work since dec 2019, was working at a school but they didn't renew my contract. said something about how the budget couldn't allocate a lab tech, but it's bullshit because i know they got someone to replace me.

have a lot of qualifications but just nothing in my field. still applying for whatever but not even getting an interview. this is despite job network being like 'have you thought about cleaning', that's awesome with a chemistry phd. worried i'm going to be share housing forever, i'm 37 this year, no hope, no job prospects, no relationship, no home of my own where i'm secure. dealing with centrelink makes me want to off myself.

[Sophie_M]

Hi hawaiian_robot,

We are so sorry to hear how financially insecure and fatigued you are feeling right now. We think you have shown great courage reaching out here as you have. Users here give and receive support to one another based on their own experiences of mental health, some of which will resonate with yours, in this safe and non-judgmental environment.

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[Rishie]

Hi hawaiian_robot,
So sorry to hear about how hard things are for you, that was bad the way the school treated you, at least they could have been honest about things. I know how frustrrating dealing with centrelink can be, some of the people there are great but some of them have bad attitudes and that just makes things worse. I hope you can find a good jo b soon. I'm praying for you. Take care of yourself.

[hawaiian_robot]

so i got rejected for a job that was well paying and in newcastle. pretty distraught, so bitter about life

i spoke to someone from beyond blue last week but they honestly weren't that helpful. just really don't see a way out of this. idk what i'm meant to do

[Ggrand]

Dear Hawaiian robot...

I am sorry you got rejected for a well paying job....Please try to not let you get bitter with life...I really hope you can find work soon..in your field of experience and expertise...

While you’re unemployed..have you thought about volunteering or even taking on a part time job..be it a cleaner, factory worker, shop assistant until you fins the position you are looking for?...I only suggest this because it could be an income higher then Centrelink payments are and being casual will give you time to apply for your job choice....I don’t know how you feel about the suggestion I have just mentioned...I hope I haven’t offended you in anyway....I have said only out of my care for you...as not working can bring us down very quickly...doing something helps in distraction our unhealthy thoughts...

The school was definitely in the wrong, by saying that your position was no longer available..then replacing you with another person....That is so wrong...I’m sorry that happened to you....

Please be gentle on you...your doing the best you can..and no one can ever do better then their best..

My kindest wishes and caring thoughts dear hawaiin robot..

Grandy..

[hawaiian_robot]

hey grandy, thank you for your lovely message. haven't taken anything from it negatively or been offended or anything, but thank you for that consideration 🙂

i think the biggest issue is that when i was working previously in that job i hated, i'd be so exhausted afterwards (would have to just collapse in bed for a few hours after i got home every day and not talk) and basically spent all my time off recuperating, couldn't even think about applying for other things.