Hi Skylar
A lack of feeling can definitely be a tricky one to navigate or make sense of at times, especially if we're someone who's so used to being a major feeler. It kind of becomes 'What's wrong with me? Am I suddenly broken in some way?'.
While I like to look at how we tick from a mental and physical perspective, I also appreciate a natural perspective. While we can feel through how we think, through our inner dialogue and belief systems etc, and we can feel through our chemistry and physical systems (including our nervous system), I like to also consider what is natural. As I heard someone once put it 'Sensitivity involves the ability to sense or feel energy in motion (e-motion), internally and externally'. In order to feel emotion, there needs to be enough energy to begin with. I hope that makes sense.
Some of the things that can lead me to not be able to feel, just so you know where I'm coming from
- Low B12 (chemical energy) levels
- A lack of dopamine triggers
- Poor sleep management, involving not managing my sleep apnea. Lots of restorative energy comes through good quality sleep
- Mental and/or physical exhaustion ('flat battery' mode)
- A lack of energy input. Hydro power (water), solar power (sun), nuclear power (food/chemistry from the earth), kinetic energy (exercise) and so on
- A lack of a 2 way emotional channel. Other people shutting off
- Emotional detachment for good reason. This one's a tricky one. While the reason for detachment may not seem obvious at first, it can make sense down the track. It's kind of like if someone's bringing us down, some part of us may lead us to detach so we won't feel that down. Becoming more familiar with that aspect of us can mean being able to switch off through channeling it when we need to
- Being challenged to develop getting a better feel for or sense of things. An example of this one could involve basically feeling 'happy' or 'happiness', which is a fairly general emotion. If happiness is actually a side effect of other emotions, the next level challenge for a person developing their sensitivity becomes about specifically sensing the feelings that lead to happiness. 'I feel a highly energetic level of excitement, that leads me to feel happiness' or 'I can feel, running through me, a sense of pure heartfelt joy which leads me to feel happy' etc etc
- Then there are scales. From pure high end elation at one end through to the feeling of zero elation at the other (aka 'numbness'). From pure high end stress at one end through to no stress at all (aka 'a pure sense of peace') at the other and so on. Then there's getting a feel for everything in between and all the triggers
- If the pure analyst in me is at work, I won't feel a single thing. This is based on the pure analyst in me being purely analytical, with no feeling involved whatsoever
- Being depressed. Hard to feel high end emotions when at the low end of the emotional scale. Involving 3 levels, we could ask 'Am I high, grounded or in a depression?'
- Another question could be 'Am I in a chrysalis stage of some type? Is what I'm going through, emotionally, transforming me in some way?'. This can feel like a period of emotional isolation or detachment
The list goes on.
As a 53yo fairly sensitive gal, it's taken me decades to work out a number of the reasons as to why I can't feel or sense at times. There's always a good reason. We're never 'broken', we just haven't discovered the reason/s yet. If you want to get purely analytical and become an energy researcher, something to consider could be how energy naturally behaves. Quantum physics is fascinating. Diving even deeper, quantum biology is a whole other level. While most of that stuff goes over my head, the basics can offer some amazing revelations. š
