Feeling lost

Ryan2021 · ‎08-09-2021

Have posted in the relationship section recently but I am struggling a bit. I was in a long distance relationship which consumed my life. The amount of love for her was huge, everything I lived for was to be reunited with her. This recently ended. Prior to this pandemic my life was travel, concerts, comedy shows, sporting events. This is now all gone. I missed my girlfriend so much I took up gokarting which is something I always wanted to do because it gave me 10 minute blocks where my mind was clear of everything. It made me happy and got me out of a loop of work and sleep with missing my girlfriend at every waking hour. Now in lockdown my gokarting has been taken away. All I have is work. Now my job is talking about forcing vaccines so as someone who doesn't want to take it for various reasons I might now lose my 2 jobs I love. I worked in a bar with great people and it was another anti-depressant being with them.

Adding to things... my house recently got sold and I have 3 weeks to be out. Can't do inspections due to lockdown and am scared to sign a new lease in case I have no work. My family is all in SA and I am considering going back there but the border crossing stuff is overwhelming. I used to be so carefree and happy in life but now it is all seeming too much and I am scared about what the world has become 😞

missep123 · ‎08-09-2021

Hi Ryan2021,

I hear you, it really sounds like you have been through a lot - especially on top of everything that has been going on with COVID.

It sounds like before the pandemic you had many hobbies that were keeping you happy (and would keep you pre-occupied now if there wasn't COVID-19). I am really sorry to hear what happened with you and your girlfriend. I know that it is definitely not easy to try to heal from that especially from how much you loved her.

Do you have a support system where you are now? Any friends you feel comfortable confiding in?

I know that things can feel like you have the world on your shoulders. You are definitely not alone here, please keep reaching out when you feel comfortable. I feel as though social connection even if it is online here on the forums is so important during these times.

We are definitely here for you Ryan2021

jaz28 · ‎08-09-2021

Hi Ryan2021,

I am sorry you are feeling lost. Given the pandemic, I am sure we all are to some extent. I am sorry about your girlfriend, But, you are not alone.

Taking up a hobby from home might be a good way to distract yourself?

I am here for you.

Jaz.

Ryan2021 · ‎09-09-2021

I haven't really got a support network, I live alone and don't have anyone within my 5km to visit. These lockdowns are doing more damage than the government's know! I have reached out to a couple of people and got a little help but don't want to keep bothering them.

missep123 · ‎12-09-2021

Hi Ryan2021,

I'm sorry to hear that you don't have anyone within your 5km. I can understand that living alone would be really challenging especially during this time 😞

I think it's really great you were able to reach out to a couple of people! I know the feeling of not wanting to bother someone, but from my own experience I have found that it is often my own thoughts telling me this rather than those people actually being bothered by me reaching out. I personally feel honoured when someone is open with me and show they feel comfortable with me.

In saying that, have those people you reached out to ever signalled that you might be bothering them?

We are here for you though! I am really glad that you have replied to us here!