Hi tahlial
My heart goes out to you at a time in your life where you're feeling so lost amongst so many deeply challenging emotions. Such an incredibly tough time in your life to be navigating.
I think there can be times in our life when we can face not knowing exactly how we got to where we are while also having no sense of direction regarding the way forward. I find at such times I can't manage life without a guide, someone to not only lead the way but also shed light on the factors that can feel so intensely challenging. It can kind of feel like 'How the heck did I come to be in such a dark place and how do I get out of it?'. The kind of guide I'll be looking for will depend on the nature of the challenge and the type of person who'll be able to help me manage it. Sometimes there'll be the need for a purely analytical person, who can take the emotion out of things so as to deal with the facts. Sometimes there will be the need for a highly sensitive person or even a soulful kind of person, one who can gain a sense of what the challenge or struggle is about. Sometimes there'll be a need for someone who's a mix of both natures. Then there will be people who have the added bonus of being a bit of a wonderer (someone who'll wonder with me as to why I'm struggling) and maybe possess the ability to be a seer, while being able to see exactly where I'm at and need to go while sharing their vision with me. If you were to choose a guide, I suppose the question is 'What type of guide are you looking for?'. It's okay not to know exactly. Sometimes it can take a little time to work it out. ❤️
