Fearful Of help

[willow_sun]

Why is it that I am so fearful and ashamed to tell others what I experience? Depression is something I have struggled with all of my life. In the past 12 months it started to really spiral out of control again. Since then, even though I have dealt with it previously and told people about it previously I am so scared and anxious to share again and reach out for help.

 I mean I am not alone. My husband knows. He supports how he can. But I know he doesn't completely understand  I don't think he ever will  I don't hold this against him . But it's hard. I know I need further support

 I finally plucked the courage a few months ago to see a naturopath and explain my difficulties. I was scared to go to my GP first for the fear of medication and embarrassment. In the past she has been very cold when I've discussed this with her. Unsupportive and never followed up. A few months on and it seems the work of the naturopath is not working. I

know I need to see a GP again. But I am so fearful. I think it may be best to change. But how do I choose who? The embarrassment. The shame. The anxiety. The courage. It all seems too much. and what if I do need medication? It seems I've exhusted every other option?

[geoff]

dear WS, welcome to the site, and I can understand your fear, apprehension and anxiety and it's well and truly justified, but please I can say to you that by having depression is not to be embarrassed about, because it's such a common illness, one that affects so many people these days.

Please click under 'Get Support' at the top of this page where there is a list of professional doctors all who help people with depression, these doctors are aligned to BB and will treat you with respect, and that's exactly what you want.

I am not a psychologist and really I have no right to make this comment, but a naturalist will only help you if you are suffering from very mild depression, and not major.

WS this is a site where so many different types of people have suffered badly from any type of depression, we have been to hell and back, how many times, too many to count, but it has ripped us apart, destroyed any family life, relationships or any employment and yet we are helpless, wonderful and caring souls who endeavour to help those that come here for support, suggestion and advice, nothing more nothing less.

I urge you to have a look at the support above that I have given you, but also please use this site to talk to us. L Geoff. x