dear Ladybug, thank you so much for coming back to the site, I wish it was under better circumstances.
I can't give you enough sympathy for how you are feeling, but what we do know is that we know exactly what this feeling is like.
Forgive me as I can't remember what you posted back in these earlier days, but understand that it must have been devastating, no different than how you feel now.
When anyone has depression most of the time we really don't know why we have it, however there are certain events or loss's that can create our depression, but in your case it's just appeared again for no reason.
Can I just ask a couple of questions so that we understand your circumstances, and please only answer if you want to, I am curious as to whether this bout of depression is similar to when you had it last time, and I presume that you were able to take AD's last time.
Please you can tell us whatever you like, we are not judgemental all we do is talk about the situation.
I don't know if you were around or perhaps remember me, but now I have a new puppie, as I had to put my Tessie down which broke my heart.
This site has improved so much so that there are so many different resources that have been added.
Can I suggest that you click onto 'Get Support' at the top of the page where there is a list of doctors, who are aligned to BB and treat those who specially have depression, so that's where you need to contact either one of them or your current doctor, so that you can have a diagnosis.
It is so sad for you to fall again into depression, it's not what we want, but we know that it happens, so please I really hope that you can trust us, and have faith in how we want to try and help you, so we would love to hear back from you. L Geoff. x
