hi and welcome to the forums.
Sorry to read how difficult a time it sounds in your house at the moment and not getting much support from your parent(s).
firstly I would say you are (or should be) allowed to show your emotions or "crack the shits" as you put it. It is sad to read your MH is being blamed. With that said, lashing out those nearest you ... ?
And I hope you won't mind me asking some questions - I don't like making assumptions. Sorry.
Because of your mental health are you getting any professional help? ie Talk Therapy.
I have a friend (mother) of 2 boys and one of which is on the autism spectrum. The child try to do things perfectly and gets frustrated when things dont work out. This can also be stressful for the parents. And tiring.
And perhaps you feel left out? I don't know and just guessing here.
can I ask what tools or strategies you have or can use to help you deal with the thoughts you get?
finally, I know that (from personal experience and I am 50) that trying to get someone to understand what you are going through can be difficult. Perhaps one time when you and mum are relaxed you can strike up a conversation about yourself. If you do get this opportunity then try if you can also speak in terms of "I" (vs "you") you might be able to work on getting what you need in terms of support.
Of course you mum might also think she is helping you before it leads into the argument.
If you want any more information on anything I mentioned, please let me know and I will answer you. I hope you will come back to tell more of your story. Listening to you.
Peace and comforting thoughts to you.
