doubting myself:(

[tashi]

totay expecially I'm doubting every decisions ive made. Feeling extremely down. I miss mu family and need to be closer to them. Bit that means shifting and possibly destroying the life ive made gor myself over the past to years. What do I do 

[Neil_1]

Hi Tashi  

So it’s been two years that you’ve been away from your family yeah?   I’m guessing where you are now, you’re at work or studying yeah?   Sorry for these questions but I can’t remember if you’ve already told us – and it will help us to give you some advice.  

Two years in one place … no doubt you will have developed some friendships and acquaintances?  Apart from your family is there something else you are missing about where you were living before? 

Or is there something where you  are currently living that is troubling you?  

I hope you can get back to us with another response if you feel ok to do so?  

 Kind regards  

Neil

[tashi]

Yes two years and im working and hoping to study. Im only 19 so this is the first time ive lived out of home and the stresses of it all are getting me down. The only time I seem to be at ease of the real world is when im at home with my mum. My partner is here to support me but . Im obviously putting it down to just being home sick. I left yhe town because of the people are all consumed by drugs but I guess nothing feels as good home

[tashi]

So ive driven 4 hours down south to visit my mum sip wine on the beach and cook lovely food. Shes not home tonight but ive sat down to look through some photo albums.  Their is a huge hole in my life. The part where my mum and dad were together and I cant remember any of it. I can't ever experience the love theu had for each other and that hurts . That was probably the best part of my entire life.  When they were together and me and my brother went about the days like there was no care in the world and that there could never be more love and I can't remember any of.by the smile on my face in those photos ivw never been so happy. Id love to feel again

[Neil_1]

Hi Tashi

You describing the photo album had me thinking that I was actually there looking at them with you as you had it so clear in my head.

It is pleasing to hear that your partner is supportive.  Again I'm sorry for asking as I can't remember if you've said this on another thread somewhere, but what is the situation with professional help?  Have you been to a GP or a recommended psych to assist you with the awfully sad feelings that you're experiencing?

Also when you drove to visit your mum, did she end up turning up, so you were able to be with her?  It is a big move when you have to move away from home and it doesn't make it any easier considering the distance ... although when I first moved away, I was at the same age as you, and I was 3 hours away.  But yeah, I would drive back home every 2nd weekend or so just to help with the settling in process. 

What are some of your hobbies or interests Tashi?  Are there things that you can try to become interested in, outside of your work where you are currently living?

Hope to hear back from you as soon as you're able to;

Kind regards

Neil

[geoff]

dear Tashi, as a kid I used to get homesick and that was for 2 weeks only, so I can imagine the pain for you, but maybe it's much more than this, could it be that you, because you have no memory of growing up with your parents that this link is something that you wish you could remember, just saying.

You made a sensible decision by moving away from a drug infested town, as you would know that this was not the place to be.

To look through the photo album by yourself or even with your boyfriend would be so sad and probably disappointing, in that it's an era where you had great times as a family with your brother, which brings to the point of are you still in contact with him or is still staying in the old town.

You seem to be a very affectionate lady, longing to see your mum, and having a great partner, and I'm so sorry that it's been 5 days for me to reply back to you. Geoff. x

[tashi]

That's ok geoff thanks for listening.  I am close with my brother and my parents.  Were all just in different stages in our lives I think I just want to remember what it was like to be all together as one big happy family. I don't know why it upsets me now it never used to. I have a great life just some days are a huge emotional struggle .im on a wait list to see a counselor hopefully it helps becausr my emotions are a bit all over the place