Hello Guitarboy, welcome to the forums.
That makes me sad to see you feel that way about yourself, I'm really sorry you're struggling with those thoughts. But I'm here to remind you:
You have a good personality, not a bad one, or the worst as you wrote, and you don't annoy people with your personality.
You're not weak, and it's okay to feel tired, exhausted, like your energy is drained and physically weakened. it's normal and common. You're strong for trying to seek help including joining here and sharing how you feel, it takes a lot of courage, so well done. I commend you.
You're not fat, and I can say that without knowing you, through here. You're not overweight and obese either. Sometimes people eat a lot, to comfort themselves, like comfort food. And this is OK to do.
I don't think you're out of control, and I'm sure you will find support, through here, your Mum, and others, if you wish. I support you.
You sound like you love your Mum, and that's sweet. Please don't feel bad about your struggles, it's ok to feel the way you do, you're worthy of love, care, and good stuff in life.
I'm here to help, support you and listen, without turning my back on you.
Please take care of yourself, and know none of the stuff you wrote about yourself is true, I know how hard it is to convince yourself it's not.
- Tayla.
