Doing anything is really hard right now

[baddie11]

I am struggling yet again to do any basic tasks and I can see it impact my life. And still I am unwilling take any action towards combating this behaviour. It just seems too overwhelming to exercise, do homework, do chores and go to work. All the work I have put in in the past year has been reversed and I am the most unsuccessful version of myself I have ever been. I understand healing and everything isn't exactly a linear route, however I am just over having to deal with this at all and just want it to be a part of my life I can leave behind me. My main goal for each day is that I 'try'. Trying to do something, take out the rubbish, change my sheets, shower is better than having no progress at all. I want a sure way to leave this behaviour in my past, it is so inconvenient. I don't understand what the trigger is but I would like for it to just stop, I haven't felt like myself in years , it's the worst.

[Petal22]

Hi baddie11,

Wellcome to our forums!

Im sorry you are feeling this way.

I think that “you trying“ is great.

I understand you are feeling overwhelmed…

I highly recommend you see your gp and discuss the way you are feeling you could do a mental health plan together this will enable you to see a psychologist.

I struggled with severe anxiety OCD for a period of time i seeked professional help and I’ve now recovered, I don’t know where I’d be with out their help.

[geoff]

Hello Baddie, sometimes this happens, we wake up and all of a sudden our personality has been blocked and don't want to do anything, this can happen every now and then, but once it's a daily event then we need to realise that there is something wrong and even the smallest of activities that we could easily do without a problem in the world, has now stopped, because it's just too hard.

When you are able to recognise that you feel that this isn't achieving much in life, is the time when you need counselling, although this can still happen beforehand.

If you are able to write down how you feel, then a psychologist could determine what the trigger points may be and then help you sort out why this is causing you trouble.

You can begin by doing things slowly, put a pie in the microwave or cook a couple of pieces of toast, these you might not have been able to do before, remember the saying 'Rome wasn't built in a day', it takes time, but can I suggest you try and find out what any trigger points could be with the help of a counsellor.

Best wishes.

Geoff.

[sbella02]

Baddie11,

Thank you so much for your openness in your post, and welcome to our forums.

I can understand what it's like to feel unmotivated in this way. Some days I'll set goals for myself to do X amount of homework, or go to the gym, and I get to the day and have no energy left to do any of these things.

You've mentioned that you're trying to make small improvements, and I think that's so so important. I commend you for your success in this regard. You've recognised what makes you feel unproductive or unsuccessful, and you're working to change it. Honestly, these baby steps can be so meaningful - in psychology terms, we call those "successive approximations" and they can really help you get on track to achieving a larger goal.

You're right, healing isn't a linear route, and it is normal to feel overwhelmed sometimes. If you'd feel comfortable, you can always have a chat to a GP, therapist, counsellor, or psychologist about how you're feeling, and they may be able to offer you some professional advice to help you out.

All the best, and feel free to keep chatting with us some more, we'd love to hear from you.

SB 🙂

[Sophia16]

hi,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums and thank you for sharing your story. It sounds like you are feeling helpless and exhausted. It must be very hard to deal with symptoms like that.

Depression is something that we can't control. It is like a black cloud that doesn't go away.

All I can say is. just do things you are capable of doing. Don't overwhelm yourself, because then you will just give up. It is so great that you are trying to do the little things, you should be very proud of yourself for being able to do that.

Have you seen a mental health professional about your struggles? Do you have a coping plan?

Stay safe and i am always here to chat.