Depression..out of the blue

Binksy
Community Member
Why does this overwhelming depression come over me out of the blue? I'm travelling along nicely... yes I'm on medication and have regular sessions with my psychologist.I get so fed up with feeling this way I want to cry. Yes this may be therapeutic  but the medication dulls this area and I am not able to cry. I've been on hols  so out of routine-have I answered my own question? I just want this pain to stop I can't share this with anyone so decided to join BB online forum I find it very hard to connect with anyone when in this frame of mind. 
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Neil_1
Community Member

Hi there Binksy

 

Welcome to Beyond Blue and that’s a remarkable post you’ve just provided.  I’ve just sent a response to a post set up by Janazantar, along very similar lines to what you’ve posted in the last part of your message.  Coming to Beyond Blue to hopefully connect with others – and as I mentioned, yes, it IS possible and IS done here, because we are all like-minded people.  So we understand the suffering that others have and feel and experience, because we’re living through it also.

 

We fully understand and when questions or whatever are posed on here, more often than not, you can receive back a lovely reply from basically anyone who is on this site, who knows what you’re saying, mostly through their own experiences.  And you know, as silly or as crazy as it sounds, it’s very comforting to know that you’re not the only one like this.

 

For instance, I agree with you 100% on the medication and regular psych sessions, and taking it a step further, doing exercise, eating well, drinking water, all the good things we need to do, and yet the Black Dog can still get off its chain and race towards you with its mongrel teeth bared.

 

Routine is another one you mention – if I get out of my routine, out of my usual style of doing things, etc, it becomes a massive anxiety and stressor for me.  Really bad.

 

Anyway, just wanted to chip in here, and do hope to hear more from you.

 

Neil

Binksy
Community Member
On it goes ....have seen GP and had an increase in meds....depression continues overeating continues staying in bed continues. The feelings of hatred for myself increase I have no value and am alone and lonely. Trying to lift these feelings to more positive thoughts but struggling...only when I have outside commitments do I seem to be able to lift my spirits seem to be 2 people...1 the outside world sees the other well...as I have described above.