Hi Jammajammamohuma,
Welcome to the forums here at Beyond Blue and to the community,
Sounds like you have your hands full looking after children and your Mother in law. I have a couple of ideas for entertaining everyone, how about a cooking session? Get everyone into the kitchen and bake some biscuits.
Or pile everyone into the car and go to a park with plenty of play equipment for the children. Make sure you have drinks and food and everyone should be happy for a while.
Grab a pile of books and have Grandma read them to the children.
Get everyone out in the garden, pull up the weeds, make mud pies, have some fun.
Depression can suck the life out of you can't it! I too have suffered from depression and related issues since I was a child. Do you have any hobbies or interests that give you at least a faint glow of appreciation? Can you try to become more involved in them?
Have you ever considered volunteer work? You could phone your local council or check them out on the web and see what they have to offer. You might find something there that will interest you. I have managed to secure work through being a volunteer in an organisation first.
You mentioned your wife doesn't understand, some people don't comprehend how a person with mental illnesses feels. There is a lot of advice here on this site. I think there is information that will help a person without depression to understand how a sufferer does feel and how they can help. It might be worthwhile checking that out.
I know "Happy pills" aren't for everyone. I for one am very thankful my Dr. has managed to find some that suit me as my depression was so out of control it was ridiculous! I hope you are able to find some solutions.
Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools
