Depression I need people around me

[Chris D]

This is my first time back to BB in quite a few yrs. I am currently at my lowest point in many years, all I'm seeking is people to support me. Hope someone can chat to me.

[Guest_4643]

I'm sorry Chris, we're here for you on here though.

[Chris D]

Feeling so lost & alone.

[Guest_4643]

I'm sorry Chris, I'm here for you

[Guest_4643]

Hi Chris, I'm thinking of you. I hope you're safe and alright. I'm always here.

[smallwolf]

hi chris, just thought I would also pop in to say hello and see how you are going.

[Chris D]

Hi Mb & smallwolf,

Thanks for both of you checking to see how I am going.
If I'm brutally honest, pretty shit the negative self talk & certain thoughts have crossed my mind many times & both have been very full on. It's taken alot of my strength not to give in to them. I have been msging lifeline which has helped a little just been trying to keep myself busy from the thoughts.
It's been a rough wk.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Chris,

We're so sorry to hear that it's been a tough week. It sounds like you've been dealing with some really tough thoughts. You might be interested in reading some strategies for turning negative self talk around - “When your inner critic is giving you a tough time”- https://www.beyondblue.org.au/personal-best/pillar/supporting-yourself/when-your-inner-critic-is-giv...

It's good to hear that you've been messaging with Lifeline and that this has been helpful for you. If you haven't yet, you might be interested in making a safety plan - “Create your Beyond Now safety plan” - https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/beyondnow-suicide-safety-planning/create-beyondnow-safety-... 

We're so glad to see that you've made some connections in the community. Do feel free to keep us updated here whenever you're feeling up to it.

 

[Guest_4643]

Hey chris, I'm really sorry you're struggling. Can I do anything? I hope Lifeline were helpful.

I hope you're safe and don't act on your negative thoughts, I know it's hard, trust me.

i'm always here for you, please keep yourself safe.

[Kkk78]

Hi Chris.

I only had to read one your posts and thought this dude and I think and feel exactly the same.

Tonight I sit here at a mates house 250 kms away from my home, my husband and kids because my depression has come back and my husband basically said - you need the house and go get better cause he feels the kids shouldn't have to see me go through it or have to "walk on egg shells around me."

my family is my family - don't have parents or siblings in my life, so when my husband puts my emotional state in the "too hard basket" when I need him the most, he abandons me. There is no worse feeling in this world than a depressed person who suffers from PTD and abandonment issues who gets abandoned and who has a partner who doesn't understand why I feel I don't matter or that I am unloved - His doesn't he see that his actions speak louder than his words. He says to me he can't fix me, only I can do that. How does a depressed person fix themselves before they can go home not want to end it all.

I hate my life.

[Sophie_M]

Dear Kkk78, 

We’re so grateful to have you reach out to our community this morning and are so sorry to hear everything you have going on at the moment. We can see how hard things are for you at the moment and hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you. 

Our Support Service have reached out to you via email as we're worried about you. 
We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
Keep checking back in with us whenever you feel up to it.