Depression I need people around me

[Chris D]

This is my first time back to BB in quite a few yrs. I am currently at my lowest point in many years, all I'm seeking is people to support me. Hope someone can chat to me.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Chris D,

I'm really glad that you came back to join us- I'm happy to chat and I'm sure others will jump in too.

Feel free to get the ball rolling with what you'd like to chat about 🙂

rt

[Chris D]

Hi Romantic,

I don't know where to start to talk about things, not really sure what to say.

All I know is that I'm feeling low & need people around me. I need support, just trying to reach out for help.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Chris D,

That's quite alright. Did you want to talk about why you decided to come back? Or even your profile picture? There's no pressure either way.

If you like or it feels more comfortable, you can have a browse on the forums and jump into threads there. Here can be an easy way to start -

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/bb-social-zone

Remember, there's also lots of hotlines available to call if you need to talk to a person too.

rt

[Chris D]

Hi Romantic,
I came back to bb as I need support.
Certain things have happened that increased the presence of my Depression.
I struggle to find ppl that understand me.
I've had my profile pic for a while.
With my circumstances, it really feels like people just gloat & really rub my nose in it.
People just don't understand, I try to explain to ppl what is going on but in the end no one ever understands.
I'd rather be by myself and being left alone.

[smallwolf]

hi Chris. It sucks when people don't understand what you are going through. It took me a little while to work out who to speak to - the range of responses I would get ranged from cheer up to, why do you...., etc Of course there were a few positive experiences. I would think that people who have some sort of experience get it. For others it can be a bit of a gamble.

Enough about me...

what is it that you would like other people to understand about you?

I guess that when you think that nobody understands you it would better to be alone. But if someone listened and understood, how would you feel then. I hope you come back to chat. I am interested in your story.

[AliasKind]

Hi Chris D,

I'm like you, in a way. Don't know what to say, I poke around the forums, but seldom comment, I feel I have nothing to add. Depression is so persuasive, it seeps into every facet of one's life. I don't know what it's like for you but for me it ebbs and flows. Loneliness is a big part of my depression (I believe). Not being able to connect with similar, like-minded people.

Just letting you know I'm here, and I'm listening.

[Chris D]

Hi smallwoof & Aliaskind,

I've had depression for many yrs, I got officially diagnosed in 2013 but I feel I had it for many yrs prior to being diagnosed. I really believe I've had it for at least 20 yrs maybe more which is more than half my lifetime.

I tried to speak to family and friends about it & feel like they listen then they stop when I get to the real deep, hard, strong thought & feelings.

I don't have much confidence in people anymore to truly understand & just to being able to provide what I need, Just someone to listen what I'm saying & understand what it's like for me & what I'm going through.

Many people suggest things which is easier said than done when you know yourself your not in a good frame of mind to be able to do things.

This is when I isolate myself which for me is like a way to recover a little bit, doing what I need to do which is best for me at that particularly point in time.

I appreciate both your responses to my thread & hope that I can assist both of you when you need it.

Thank you

Chris

[smallwolf]

hi Chris.

In my family I am closest to my mum. We speak/spoke a fair but about mental health stuff but like you family does not want to get real deep - that is because she was already worried enough about me. There is one person that knows "almost" as much as my psychologist - he has been in similar position to myself as we allow each other to be open.

As for friends suggestions.. I tend to ignore those. They mean well but ....

have you been into the social section on the forums here?

By the way... I am 50, married with 2 kids, now out of high school. And based on what I have spoken with my psych ologist/iatrist about it is something that started in my early years. Anyway, if you want to chat about anything!

Lastly, I also collect quotes... things like... it does not matter how slow you move forward as long as you are moving. I cannot remember who wrote that now, but is something that keeps my going.

Tim

[AliasKind]

Hi Chris,

I think so many people can relate to feeling like they've lived with depression a long time prior to a diagnosis or such. I know I can. I feel a little sad that I waited so long to get help, how one's life course could of been different.

How different things could be if we had a partner in this, someone to negotiate with and find compromise to activities or tasks, a person willing to go the distance, alongside. I hear what you say when you retreat and isolate yourself, of course isolating can be (not always) negative also. Add to feelings of loneliness and begin the negative cycle again.

I've read somewhere depression is common to start in teenage years, so I'm not surprised you've had it more than half your life. Of course a lot of the time, it gets misconstrued as teenage hormones etc.

I'm glad you've joined and thanks for writing back. It is lovely to be heard and responded too. 🙂

Hope you have a good day