Hi Muscat,
I am really sorry to hear this, you sound like you are having an awful time. Firstly, I understand what you mean by feeling like you are letting your family down. I think you should remember that having anxiety and depression is not your fault, so you should not feel like you are letting people down. I would try and think about why you feel that you cannot leave the house, what it is that is making you shake and feel terrible. I use to study at uni and once my anxiety of talking in front of people led me to the point that I stopped attending my classes and I eventually quit. Although, it wasn't what I wanted to do, when I look back now all of my decisions were clouded by my own fear of being judged and feeling like I wasn't smart enough to talk in front of people. I would try and explain to your family how you are feeling, talk them through what is going through your mind so they can try and understand a little better. Talking to a GP might be a good idea, like Geoff said they can make house calls. I know it seems hopeless now, but keep trying to leave the house each day, try and find something positive to focus. Remember that you are a wonderful person, that you are a fantastic mother and that you have everything ahead of you, you just have to get out there and experience it. It might take you a while to feel better, it will take time but you have the power to make yourself happy. Positivity and smiling brings happiness slowly. We are all here to support you, to listen and to be here whenever you need people to talk to, you are not alone in this.
