Dear New Member~
Welcome here ot hte Forum where you may find a surprising amout of encouragement.Being reluctant to take new meds, a frightening experience, is only natural
I felt as you and the medication I was on simply made me feel dopey and confused. It did not help be to get a good night's rest, in fact I used to dread bedtime because it took hours to get to sleep and then had nightmares.
I was fortunate enough to have a clinician who was not fixed in his ideas and we tried a fair number of medications, however in the end we found a combination to take at night that allowed me to sleep and not feel dopey all the time. In other words they worked -amazing. I've been on them over 10 years and it has been well worth it.
So my suggestion is you do try meds and see the effect, always under close supervision, and if they -after a fair trial - do not do the job or have unacceptable side effects get them changed.
The other thing I'd like to say is I discovered my depression was filling my mind with thoughts that left me feeling hopeless, that it was all my fault and nothing could be done.
Depressions is very subtle and I genuinely thought those thoughts were my own and accurate. Nothing could have be further from the truth. Depression blocks out knowledge of all the good things in life.
So please hang on and keep trying, there is hope.
May I ask if you are facing this all alone or if you have someone in your life, family member or friend perhaps, you can talk with and htey will listen and care?
You will be welcome here anytime
Croix
