Depression and anxiety

[Suet suet]

I like to share my problems and hope someone will listen and give me some thoughts on it. Knowing that it’s not going to solve the problem. At least I can release my emotion a bit.

i was diagnosed with moderate to severe depression and anxiety all at once after doing the depression screen in late July. It was like a sudden heart attack. I could not believe the fact that i need to start taking antidepressant as well as seeing a psychologist. It’s such a mental health problem. I feel so ashamed to tell my husband about the condition. I wear a mask everyday pretending I am ok. I also wonder if I would ever recover. I had struggled for 10 days to finally get to a chemist to get the drug as after days of depression and unsleepless. It was a real torture! The antidepressant indeed has improved my sleeping. I started the first session with a psychologist last week, however not very useful! I told myself to think everything in a positive way and I will be ok. Last week, I decided to come off the drug although the psychologist warned me that it would take 6 full weeks for the antidepressant to come effect. I am not sure if its a good idea to stop now. But I only had drugs for 20 days. I do not want to rely on it to make me sleep! Everyday I feel so depressed and so tired. Expression has psuhed away my motivation and I found that everything I do is an effort. I don’t want to meet people.

My brain has focused so much on negative thoughts. any idea how to change or divert my negative thoughts!

[Suet suet]

First of all, I want to say thank you for sharing your knowledge and journey. It does give me an insight as how antidepressants work in our body - so the underlying problem is chemical imbalance! I know nothing about antidepressants and perhaps that’s why I refuse to try in the first place.


Doctors normally won’t tell you all that details /information. You are just asked to take it. Who cares? It’s your welfare. All they do is to give you a script. Often I leave the door with some uncertainty and doubt...

I am so sorry to hear that you have travelled a long and rough road before finding the right med. I feel that I have to go through the same circuit to get the right one too 😞

I have felt quite badly for the last 2 days without an apparent reason. Feeling tired to feel tired at the vicious cycle. With so much negative thoughts around my head, It has its toll on my physical health. I am going to take a week off from work and chill out. maybe time to have a change!


I don’t seem to have a good GP who understands and is willing to explain and clarify things. Finding a good GP is another challenge, like finding the right med.

[Aeroboi]

Yeah I understand the endless cycle of feeling crap. Just the other week I was going thur negative thoughts because I was working. I have been unable to find work so I expect the transition to be uneasy. But my plan is to take it slow and do what I can.

my GP has an interest in mental health, so he is keen to help me. A lot of what I know is from my psychologist and finally, my own research and experience.

My first GP wasn’t very good so I would say trying different doctors can’t hurt. I didn’t like my first psychologist either.

But while it took months to find good ones, they where only the second one from their fields. So I didn’t have to try many.

I wish I could give you some advise on how to find a good doctor, I was just lucky to fumble my way to some good ones.

Have you read the webpage: beyondblue / the-facts / depression / treatments-for-depression / medical-treatments-for-depression

it has some good information and advice for someone trying to learn about the available medications and treatments. When it comes to understanding antidepressants doctors know only so much about them. To make it worse the first time your prescribed you might not know what to ask. I have a lot of trust in my doctors and I think that it’s important, I also use google to find out stuff. But be warned, you shouldn’t believe everything said on the internet. Always consult a health professional when in doubt.

Also I want to take this chance to say something. Depression in moderate and sever forms are challenging to live with and recover from. My advice is to try treatments and see what ones help. If something isn’t working for you then it’s not your fault, try to remember that depression is hard, and depression will make you feel like it’s not worth it. But once you start to see improvements even small, you’ll know that it made a difference.

[Suet suet]

Thank you so much for taking your time to reply, Aeroboi. I really appreciate it.