Depressed and Alone

[happyannie]

Hi I didnt have anyone to talk to so I thought I would write my thoughts down it usually helps some what. My carer has the week off and he is such a big part of my life and does so much with me and for me, but most importantly he listens. While hes away my daughters my carer but she works full time so Im feeling very isolated, I dont have people I can call upon and I woke up today very depressed, not knowing what to do with myself, I dont leave the house except to go to Doctors appointments thats my agoraphobia, which I hate.

My mind is taking over me, my thought process is not good at the moment, some dark thoughts creeping in.

Anyway as usual thank you beyond blue for listening to me and for giving me a safe place to vent

Thanx Annie

[pawsy]

Hi Annie!

Sorry youre feeling isolated and like you're mind is taking you over. I understand that. I call it 'falling' , when my mind does that. It's not a nice feeling. I'm glad you reached out though on the forum, and happy I can write you back. Best thing for isolation is company, hey? No matter if it's just words on a page, it's still company. I have been feeling blue too this week. Lost and scared about the future. I find it massively helpful to come on here and read how others are feeling the same.

Do you have any pets? I find my cat helps on isolated days, although today he has disappeared ... cats are a bit unhelpful like that.

Not sure how else I can be useful, but wanted to say I read your letter and am thinking of you! Write back if you feel like it. Best wishes from pawsy

[happyannie]

Hi Pawsy

Thank you for your reply and kind words, I have a little bird who I talk to all the time ,shes a diamond dove, who sometimes comes out of her cage, shes good company when shes not sleeping. I was so stressed that I too fell asleep, short power nap and my daughter will be home tonight thank goodness she always worries about me.

Once again thank you and I hope everything is alright with you.

Take care

Annie

[pawsy]

Oh, a diamond dove. I googled that, they are **beautiful**. Pets are so great. My cat makes everything better. I'm glad your daughter will be with you tonight, and I hope tomorrow is better. Thanks for your good wishes! I had a wobbly start to the day but I'm finishing in quite good spirits. hug from pawsy.

[MusoWriter]

Hello Annie. I can so relate to you being feelings of being alone without support with the darkness
starting to descend. I have recently had to change my medication and needed to
relearn responses and allow time for the changes to kick in. We all have some
challenges and mine are hugely different to yours. My shrink advised
me to remember and use my talents and skills that make me feel good when I feel
at my darkest and worst. This has really helped me to come back from the black.
What do I do? I play my electric cello, play my keyboards, finish a short story
and possibly spend time with my little dog. ((not all at once :-)) It is
starting to make a difference to me even with my meds that are not yet up to
speed. I hope this helps you a little. Its helping me. Even when I don’t
feel like doing anything.

[geoff]

hi Annie, are you able to get out of the house with your carer in tow, sometimes this may help while other times it makes no difference, but loneliness is terrible, especially when you have these awful thoughts that keep running through your mind and no one to talk to, perhaps, I can mention for you to start reading some of the most frequent sections on this site, and if you feel well enough to then reply to someone, this will make your day feel as though you have accomplished something fulfilling. Geoff.

[happyannie]

Hi Pawsy

Yes diamond doves are so cute

I just wanted to say thanx to you for your support and your best wishes.

Thank you to everyone for your support

I wish for you to have an amazing day

Take care

Annie