Dear pj1987a~
It is a very courageous thing to come here and admit that one has an addition - to anything. It shows a degree of strength and desire to get better that really is to be admired.
To be addicted does make one question oneself and see oneself in an unkind like. As oyu are finding it can also affect other areas of one's life. The nature of addiction is such that giving up is not easy and quite often is a case of succeed and relapse, though final success is very possible.
I'm not sure that "hiding the keys" so to speak from yourself is going to be that effective, except perhaps for a few minutes to give you a chance to pause and re-think what you want to do.
In addition with may addictions the base cause that lead to them may need to be understood. May I ask if you are under treatment for your anxiety and depression?
I would think that the best way to recover is with help. That will probably, as Quirky suggests, be doctor, psychologist or counselor, an other avenue you might use as well is a support group. These can be fantastic.
It can seem pretty confronting to join others and disclose something so personal about yourself, but the others are in the same boat and hoping to give and receive support too, in part from you.
Contacting our 24/7 Help Line on 1300 22 4636 may give you some idea of what is available in your area.
Please don't be discouraged at past lack of success, each try does build on previous efforts.
As Quirky says you are very welcome here.
Croix
