Day to day

[mocha delight]

Ok so I’m going to start a post where I’ll just going to check in when I feel like I want to with how I’m doing day to day. So Wednesday & yesterday mum was nitpicking at some symptoms/signs of depression I’ve been having again despite being on antidepressants. I’ve also been experiencing feeling like I’ve had way to much sugar/coffee which I don’t and just today I had this quite big spurt of energy which I have no idea where it even came from & nor have I ever experienced something like that before.

[mocha delight]

Oh also Wednesday night I think it was when the tv show the residents was on, on channel 7 when it got to the part when the dad had come out as having depression of some kind I don’t think I can watch stuff like that as I at the same time as I was trying to hold back tears I experienced nose/mouth twitching of the muscles (sorry don’t know how else to explain it on what was happening) which I mostly have never ever experienced ever in my life either as it was like I was kind of not in control of those muscles or whatever was going on with that. And I’m not asking for any medical advice but has anyone experienced the uncontrollable muscle twitching or does that sound familiar to anything anyone has experienced before? As it was the weirdest thing I’ve experienced and feel like I may be going crazy or more so then I already am 😂.

[geoff]

Hello Mocha delight, and I've seen you comment many times on the forums and I know it's not easy to do but thank you.

To answer your question, muscle twitching can happen for lots of reasons, like stress, too much caffeine, a poor diet, exercise, or as a side effect of some medicines, although I'm not qualified to say, just know from experience.

It could happen in the eye lids or muscles and if it continues then see your doctor, but I do a couple of light exercises and it goes away.

Nitpicking could only be only how the other person feels, but it's how you actually feel youself that's important.

Best wishes.

Geoff.

[Doolhof]

Hi mocha delight,

I just have a comment to make about being on anti-depressants and showing signs of depression. It has been my experience and my understanding that medication for depression does not make it disappear like magic. Medication can help control depression, reduce its affects and help us to experience life differently.

I'm not a medical person at all, but find it a little concerning if your Mum thinks the medication is going to be a complete cure.

Do you have other ways to help with your depression as well? People say that exercise, a healthy diet, relaxation techniques and doing pleasurable activities help as well. I am wondering if you are able to implement any of these in your life?

Like Geoff mentioned, some muscle twitches are involuntary and just happen (for some reason I don't understand) also as Geoff mentioned, if concerned chat with a DR about it if it continues.

Cheers from Dools

[mocha delight]

Thanks for your reply geoff I think it was just to do with seeing that dad from the tv admitted that he was suffering from depression as the slight muscle twitching has not happened since then so go figure.

[mocha delight]

Hi doolhof no my mum doesn’t think that antidepressants are a magical cure she just doesn’t understand about depression nor has she read up about it & probably won’t. And as to your two questions no & possibly.

[mocha delight]

So Friday, Saturday & yesterday was not A good day and I don’t even want to talk about how bad today was. Not to mention I’m having more and more bad days again.

[mocha delight]

Muh I’m so over the family drama mainly on one side of my family and today’s drama just left me both angry & upset. Holding it together but to be honest I don’t know how much longer I can continue to do so before I feel like a complete mess as I’m having more and more bad days again and I’d be happy with even a good day occasionally here & there.

[geoff]

Hello Mocha delight, with all of this lockdown that we have had to sustain, it can bring out all those little idiosyncrasies that have not needed to be exposed, those that could be on our side that no one has ever seen before.

This may or may not be acceptable but it's how it affects you and whether or not you need to respond.

What has happened and please only reply if that's what you feel like doing.

Take care.

Geoff.

[mocha delight]

So Tuesday last week I felt like I was coming down with a bad migraine. Then my cat who is in my profile picture on Wednesday morning started vomiting quite a bit, Bile, had stinky poops (sorry I know that’s tmi) & gastro Then at 2pm ish I had made a appointment at the vets on so within 30 minutes to an hour of that she barely had any energy at all so that really worried me as you can imagine. The outcome was she was not dehydrated, no temperature, had nothing in her tummy and the vet was not worried about the stinky poops but was concerned about the vomiting. So as to the vets instructions she was to have no food for 24 hours then a cooked mix of 80% rice & 20% chicken (but not bbq chicken) but only a tsp at a time and a tbs of water at a time to keep her hydrated so as you can imagine my emotions were all over the place. Then By Wednesday night/early Thursday morning I was up most of the night with vomiting & gastro so was quite unwell myself so was not a good week last week. So up until except last week I have been absent here as I’ve been struggling emotionally and then last week happened.