Hello.
I've been away from the forum for a while but needed to come back today. I am going to try sum this up in the best way possible.
Basically I've been suffering from depression, anxiety, ocd and un-alive thoughts/actions my whole life. But things got bad after my mother and father got sick and then died of terminal illness. Its been around nine years since they passed and I have not been able to move on and have left a trail of mistakes and mess and I dont know how to pick myself back up with my depression and my constant suicidal thoughts and actions (yes I've acted on those thoughts in the recent past).
I cant find motivation to face each day to do even the smallest of tasks and my mind is a dark place and full of confusion. Watching robin williams onterview earlier he described his feelings with depression and un-alive thoughts so well that it made me see that I may never overcome this and it will be a constant and eventually I will leave this world by my own two hands.
I have no idea what to do anymore accept let the darkness take me away.
Anything you have advice or similar feelings is appreciated. Thanks.
