Can anyone really help?

[Myfears]

I am having the worst anxiety and depression I've ever had, it's been 6 weeks now and I'm getting worse.  I've been seeing a Pschycologist for a year, I've done all the things she said to do do but I've found no relief,

I haven't been back to work, lucky my manager is understanding.  I can't leave my house, I don't enjoy anything and all I do is cry.  I'm dizzy and feel like I'm having a heart attack everyday.  I've been to the ED at the hospital, they ran tests and say all is ok.

I've done the breathing, meditation, healthy eating, vitamins, talking to someone but the feeling just remains.  I can't take Meds due to sensitivity from side effects, the hospital gave me an anti depressant that sent me to bed for 5 days, I couldn't even stand up without help.

I tried a natural tablet and that made me nauseous, dizzy and I couldn't eat for a week.

 I have come to the conclusion, no one can help me and I'm doomed to this life forever, I will probably end up losing my job because when I get up of a morning I break into a cold dizzy sweat and want to throw up, I then have to collapse back on the bed for a few hours.

my daughter has tried getting me help through the mental health system, an anxiety clinic and the hospital but even they can't seem to help apart from give advice.

 I hate being here, I wouldn't ever do anything but I still hate it

[Neil_1]

Dear myfears

Thank you for coming here and providing your post, and also I’d like to welcome you to Beyond Blue.

This situation you’re in is definitely not good.  A few things to raise here and hopefully something might be of use to you.

If you’ve been seeing this psyche for a year and have found no relief, I think it might be time for a change.  Even though this psyche does know your background/history, the big thing here is that she doesn’t seem to be making any advances in your condition.

Do you feel that you have a good GP who you go too?   If yes, I’d be making another appointment to go see them.

If not, on this site, Beyond Blue have a list of GP’s that can be searched for;  these GP’s are all experienced in dealing with mental health issues and as a result would be best placed to provide a referral to a suitable psyche for you.  Also with regard to meds, you should definitely tell the GP about your sensitivity issues – because I would be surprised if there wasn’t “one” particular type that would be suitable for you;  as there are just so many.  It could be trial and error, but as long as you’re being monitored by a professional with this, I believe in the long run, it’s going to be of enormous benefit for you.

That is disappointing to hear that clinics or even hospitals are unable to provide you with help – I mean, if they’re giving advice, they’ve possibly already mentioned the things I have above.

I do hope that at the very least that you’re back to being able to eat again.   I had a procedure done on Monday and I had to fast from late on Saturday through to Monday and wowee, not having food for even that short an amount of time plays massively on your body AND mind.

I would really like to hear back from you on this.

Neil

[Myfears]

thank you Neil1 for your reply,

I have been advised to find a clinical Pschycologist to have a care plan made up and then to be referred to a pshchiatrist for treatment that hopefully works.

I've been told that Meds are trial and error but that's what scares me.  My whole life I've had to deal with allergic reactions to a lot of medications, I've had seizures, my heart has stopped, I've had anaphylactic reactions ect which scared me to the point I am at now of being terrified of Meds.  

The hospital administered an antidepressant, I thought I was going to just lay there and die in the end.  5 days of no eating didn't effect me because I just lost all interest of food and everything else.

I thank you again for your advice and reply and hope you are feeling well.

[Neil_1]

Hi there Myfears

Thanx for your response and that IS scary to hear about the reactions that you’ve had to meds.    I’m sorry, I wasn’t as fully aware of what they were doing to you when I wrote originally, for if I had, I doubt I would have suggested any further tries for meds.   With the side effects you’ve been getting, I seriously think that you should not even go down the medication path anymore.  Trial and error – sounds all well and good for the layman, but when it affects someone so drastically, I really don’t think it’s worth it.

I sure hope that’s the thoughts that your clinical psychologist comes up with as well for you.

In the meantime though, congrats to you for seeking out this additional source of help for yourself – the clinical psychologist, and here’s hoping that they are able to produce some kind of plan, incorporating different methods and alternative ways of assisting you.

Thank you so much for asking after me also – I’m battling away on a daily basis;   just ticking the boxes that need to be ticked and also at times having to struggle massively with my mind as it wants me to go down a certain path, but I’ve got to try and steer it away from that.  Almost like a constant battle.

Cheers

Neil