Hi Montahh,
Welcome to the forums 🙂
I've never been given a complete diagnosis for BPD, but was working on DBT and Schema Therapy both of which were designed for BPD, so that gives a pretty good idea of what I'm struggling with, haha.
My biggest struggles are lack of identity, dissociation and fear of abandonment. Yesterday I managed to catastrophise over a friend-kind-of-date-interest not replying for an hour and convinced myself that...well, you know how bad it can get! Turns out she was having a nap.
About the risky behaviour, I've had my fair share of gambling, drinking, risky driving, and just generally flirting with risk, as well as just outright causing myself pain.
The advice my psychologist gave me is just to stop and do body scans similar to what romantic_thief has explained really well above. I wasn't very good at this though, so I guess it's just a matter of constantly trying until it gets progressively more "normal" for me.
But in the meantime, I try to think about the triggers. What sets you off? For me it's people, so I try to tell people how I am and how not to set me off. E.g. I tell my friends that if they ever want to stop talking to me, could they please just tell me outright and not just assume I'll interpret silence. Also to tell me if they are about to do something if we're messaging, because I will interpret silence as abandonment and freak out.
I hope that helps 🙂
James
