Hi Lulu,
I think that you have been given some good advice on the forums. I particularly like the reminding that you have been well for a couple of years and it is kind of OK to feel upset and lonely whilst in a crisis and with out support . Anybody would !
I guess its about how you proceed from here… how you look after yourself . How you draw on the knowledge of yourself that you have gained over the years that will allow you to sooth yourself , then pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back on track .
For some of us it is getting back into the lifestyle factors - exercising , eating healthy and sleeping well . Maybe a mindfulness course near you would be ideal . Or maybe a support group or a supportive counsellor. If you have been on medications in the past , you might want to discuss with your GP , what would be the triggers for restarting them .
With respect to friends and social contact, i think it is really important that you do try to find some social contacts as we all need friends and someone to chat with and engage with . Think about joining local clubs or volunteer organisations that might allow you to get into contact with a couple of nice people in your area. They don’t have to become your “best friends“ but even a pleasant time out every now and then is helpful for mood !
You say you have no one to rely on … but you are forgetting one important person … YOU! In all honesty , that goes for almost everyone.. that’s what it boils down to, so make yourself as secure healthy and active as you can- work out what interests YOU and get into it.
